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By RainbowChaser Date: 2003 Jul 23 Comment on this Work [[2003.07.23.17.56.29925]] |
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The confusion of you has overwhelmed me broke down all my defenses and left me wondering what if, and why did i decide to blow you off did it have to do with a stronger suitor a stronger potential for love and marriage something that i believed would happen with you but somehow never materialized was there a relationship or were you just a fuck buddy that i developed feelings for and overestimated the attraction well today i let me guard slip and fell into the confusion of you once again your beautiful brown eyes your amazing white smile i was like a deer in headlights at the confusion of you your touch sent shivers through my very soul blindsighting me and leaving me defenseless it was all i could do to avoid your advances but eventually overcame them after you intitated all kinds of contact guiltily i complied confused, i regained my composure to look into your eyes one last time you're going away and i'll never see you again you tell me to take care explain to me that you never failed me that erica was a never part of your vocabulary via text message you deny that we were only fuck buddies you beg me to take you halfway home but i can't comply i have things to do and one last time, what would i do bid you farewell and watch you walk away from me forever did i ever really win? wasn't it i who ended this who let you go and moved on with my life but in the confusion of you all past emotions begin to flow back but the sex wasn't as good as i remembered but in the feelings for you remain smaller than they used to be but i'm painfully aware that there is still a linger of you in my mind confusing me, bringing me to the brink of bottled mixed emotions i'm over you it's over what we had was meant to be short term but silly me, i always prolong the connection thanks for being my stumbing block when i needed it for occupying my time and allowing me to say once that the gorgeous man sought me out but for now, the confusion of you will remain locked, never to be opened again we will never be we never were it was just a passing tide in the hands of time it was good while it lasted, but must never be opened again |