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By RainbowChaser Date: 2003 Jul 30 Comment on this Work [[2003.07.30.19.56.13892]] |
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No need to punish me for real and imagined misgivings i can do it alone i can make myself suffer so much more fully than you could ever hope to personal punishment is my forte i'm a perfectionist i'm in tune with pain, pleasure, and punishment it hurts, but in some psychotic sense it feels pleasurable i punish myself because i love you and i imagine that i've harmed you immensely permanently and for that, there is no escape from punishment or pain painful tears fall i try to hide my feelings try to hide the constant pangs of guilt personal punishment allows me to believe that i somewhat deserve you because i pay for my sins i've punished myself for all my shortcomings praying that you'll never see me in the middle of a period of personal punishment |