By RainbowChaser
Date: 2003 Sep 19
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[[2003.09.19.15.05.8579]]

Fuck it

Fuck it, i screwed up
i spent money, i didn't prepare for tomorrow
and now i'm nauseous thinking about all the cracks in my plans
when will i have time to work, study, and live life

i may have to move, i can't afford a loan
oh, god, i'm so scared that i can't breathe
all the possiblities swirl in my head
oh, god, i must go back to the toilet to dispose of my anxieties

am i overreacting?
i can't help but stuff my fears and then force then up with a rude finger once again
i thought i was cured
but somehow pressure can't be relieved unless i force it into my mouth

fuck it, i'll survive
i pray to god for help
for mercy
for time to make this all work

please don't let my life be fucked up
i pray this all works out
who knew money would be so hard in these times
well fuck it, i'm going to make it.