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By Misti Date: 2003 Sep 26 Comment on this Work [[2003.09.26.00.08.17329]] |
| The birthday card I gave you today says it all. On the front, a photo of a little boy and girl holding hands in the surf. Inside the words,"I waded my whole life for you." It is true. I never knew I'd find a man who would me tell that I was brilliant even though I couldn't pronounce numerous words and didn't know shit about politics or American history or evolution or geology. When people told me I was stupid and ditzy I believed it. I failed remedial math in college and could not grasp the basics of philosophy. You told me I was brilliant and I tried to believe it. You were the brilliant light which flooded my heart with endless knowledge and compassion and beautiful true life stories. You made love to me completely. You were the only man who has ever been able to coax multiple orgasms out of my sluggish libido. Your laugh made my heart ache with tenderness. I saw the little boy in you and I wanted to hold him and cherish him forever. I waded my whole life for you...waded through the salt of my tears the pounding waves of rejection the sewerage of a dysfunctional family all emotion no logic. I drowned and you could not save me. I should have learned to be a stronger swimmer. |