By Misti
Date: 2003 Oct 11
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Today Is Friday And I Did Not Live

today is friday and i did not live
but i breathed and laughed watching
"The Price Is Right"
because Bob Barker got upset and flustered
and turned it into comedy
all of this from a contestant spinning
the wheel too hard and falling back
and almost knocking poor Bob over
Bob said he should have stayed in the Navy
damn, that made me laugh

today is friday and i did not live
but i breathed and slept hard
and woke up before my husband got home
from working in the AOL coal mines
and hurriedly put on a pretty face
and rushed out into the rain
so that my husband would not complain about
me sleeping all day and getting nothing accomplished
i drove through the water looking for Osuna
saw a double rainbow over the mountains
finally found the Precious Moments childcare center
went inside and grabbed an application
oh, such elation returning to a field
that doesn't pay shit
but at least i will no longer have to speak
to bored rich bitches on the phone
and convince them in a Marcia Brady voice
that their lives will not be complete
without the latest lace tanga
or low-rise jeans the color of Barney's vomit

today is friday and i did not live loud
like a sexy successful 24 year old
heading to the pub after work with
Todd and Krista and Mallory and Rick
making plans for later on
dancing and drinking martinis at the newest
throbbing hot spot on Central

today is friday and i lived quiet
in my plum colored sweatshirt and pajama pants
talking to my husband until he told me
to leave him alone so he could watch
some movie in which Nicolas Cage plays
a detective on assignment to see if a girl
in a snuff movie is really dead
and i don't like being dismissed
so i said Fuck You and gave my husband the finger
like i always do
waiting maybe hoping
that he would snap it in half

today is friday and i finally called it a day
after enough disappointment and angst and hunger
had ensued
went to bed unhappy
and slept soundly
until my husband woke me up and angrily asked
What's Wrong With You?
i don't remember my reply but it was short
and not sweet
and i turned over and went back to sleep and dreamed
of my husband watching another horror movie
and making me believe in my five year old stupidity
that it was true and it was going to happen
to me, too, and i had to pee but i was too scared
to go to the bathroom in the dark
and he mocked me and i threw things
that did not shatter

today is friday and it does not matter that i
am alive.