By Misti
Date: 2003 Oct 17
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I Want To Be

I want to be the model on page 15, letter E
of the VSD 2003 holiday casual catalog
so carefree and effortlessly sexy
in a spruce mock turtleneck sweater
and mod a-line mini
with zipped up stiletto knee-high boots
with my body by Victoria
and my face by M.A.C.
giving all my secrets away for free
and not asking for
anything back

I want to be a trashy hard-lovin'
whiskey guzzlin' rode hard and put up wet
divorce court with no alimony or child
support vet
smoking and swapping war stories in prison
with the blues laid out in tattoos on
both arms my charms reduced to crude
jokes about anatomy and canny understanding
of The System and how to cheat it at every
turn even on the inside

I want to be the bony pointy-nosed bitch
on "Jeopardy" who knows about politics and
all the Presidents and archaeology and the
history of the whole wide world beginning
with the first flesh melted witch

I want to be the yoga practicing eight
glasses of water a day drinking clear thinking
natural blond size zero vegan native Californian
with a professionally decorated modern split-level
in Malibu with a dog or two and an occasional
boything named Alex who sends me dewy white
roses every January sixteenth because I'm a
double Capricorn with Venus in Pisces and a
36DD without the silicone

I want to be at peace with myself
like Madonna
I want to be madly in love with life
like Drew Barrymore
I want to be downloaded
upgraded
created to be destroyed
the whole of female consciousness
without the pesky void.