By Misti
Date: 2004 Mar 15
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My Love Wishes For You

my love wishes for you are not few
or facile
or facetious
for despite my flaws
and the fact that i am crawling with flies
you do not realize
the depth, the fierceness, of my feelings for you
for there have been so many nights
you have slept and i have listened to your breaths
thanking the god you think i have forgotten
for the miracle of you
for the love you have given so freely
so faithfully
for your sweet face
tinged with moonlight
serene and beautiful
and noble and mine
to cherish until the day i die

i have failed you again
i will always fail you
and yet i want you to know
that my love wishes for you
are not few
or facile
or facetious

i wish for you a woman so wondrous and lovely
she will make the ache of loving and losing me
fade away like i was three and a half years
of nothing
a bad dream shaken off upon waking
i wish for you a fully awake woman
who does not sleepwalk
or talk nonsense
a woman beyond innocence
yet still pure and puerile
in some way
a woman you can play with
giggle with
the meg ryan character you love in
"you've got mail"
perky and smart
and principled
who will never wound you with words
or bored eyes
i wish for you paradise in a warm soft body
she will do more for you
than spread lotion on your hands
and she will leave you notes and surprises
not a mess of makeup
and wish lists
and credit card receipts

you will find what i should have given you
you will find all the beauty and wonder
that you deserve
you will not die alone
you will not die ashamed

my love wishes for you
are not few.