By Misti
Date: 2004 May 07
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GeNeSiS

people have said and we've agreed
that we started things off in the worst way
at the worst time
but then I think of when I didn't even know you
and I sat in your chair at work
and you looked surprised
especially when I wouldn't move for you
and how I didn't like you at first
because you were loud and jovial
and called everyone by name
you almost reminded me of Joe Pesci
and that wasn't good
and back then I didn't have any friends to hang out
with on breaks
so I worked through all my breaks
and you walked by me one night and asked why I never
took breaks and I told you I was Japanese

I never was one to tease or flirt
I hurt too deeply to even try
I had a minor crush on Arthur because he reminded
me of Brian, in a way
and I showed him that I liked him by asking him about
his tattoos and Dinosaur, Jr. and bringing my
Luscious Jackson and Jimi Hendrix cds to work

but then you heard my mix tapes
and saw my collages
and I heard your out of control Woody Woodpecker laugh
and saw you dancing to "Chattahootchie"
in the mail room
and then we started working on the show
and then I said I wanted Arthur to film
me and I would be naked and dousing myself
with tequila
and then I walked into the cafe
wearing the black velvet dress and fishnets
and cherry red lipstick
and black liquid eyeliner
and you were too bummed out to take a sip
of my drink

and I don't see the sleaze
just the humor and the heat
and the inevitable night at the Frontier
when I said,"Aren't you ever going to kiss me?"
like Ariel in "Footloose"
married, yes, but numb and frozen
from years of looking out windows
and having psychotic fights in parking lots
and screaming matches in a sardine tin
wondering when the neighbors were going to call
the cops

you were who you were and absolutely
and I was looking for more than a good fuck
and you weren't looking for anything at all
and I don't care what anyone says
smug with their sermons
if we ever have kids
I won't be ashamed to tell them
our story.