By Misti
Date: 2004 Jul 19
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[[2004.07.19.11.55.10594]]

I Am So Fucked

your rock star charisma was never more evident
than the night you got back from Oakland
walking toward me in the airport
I was thinking Fuck Me
This Man..This Man...Sent To Destroy Me
oh my god
you were not sweet
I knew you were on something
I almost felt irrelevant
but I didn't care
driving you back to my place
listening to my newest mix tape
"Christine Sixteen" by Kiss
"Goody Two Shoes" by Adam Ant
I sang along and showed off to impress you
feeling like I would never be enough
then you gave me those gifts
and showed me a decade's worth of pictures
you with a mullet all preppy and shit
you with long hair better than mine
in black leather with a drummer chick dressed all
in black like you
she was the one you were destined for
but it didn't work out
I was doubting my sexiness
my future Mrs. potential
then you showed me the little packet
and I didn't have a clue
but you taught me everything I didn't learn
in West Texas
and I knew I was fucked
yes I know I am fucked
because all of my exes combined
don't equal you
giving me almost kisses
almost right in time
to save me.