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By Misti Date: 2004 Jul 23 Comment on this Work [[2004.07.23.10.08.20780]] |
| I am coming to the conclusion a bit late that I am not designed to be a wife or girlfriend. I'm a kick ass lover. I can do the sex thing, the passion thing, the erotic thing. I can be a muse. I can fuck a guy silly and never see him again and I will never be forgotten. That is my curse. I am Marilyn Monroe without the beauty and fame and mythology. I am a yammering neurotic maniac. I will die naked with the phone in one hand and a soggy crumpled Kleenex in the other. I want to be adored. I can never be bored so I write and make mix tapes and read and masturbate and avoid the television like I'd like to avoid Wal-Mart but can't because I live with my mom and stepdad and they are always sending me to Wal-Mart to buy batteries and air filters and shit. When my boyfriend calls I do a Tarot reading. I shuffle the cards with one hand. I yammer on about the Venus and Pluto opposition. I don't know what the fuck I'm talking about. More astrological drivel gleaned from VeryModern's oh so popular blog at xanga. The whole wide world loves VeryModern. VeryModern is designed to be a wife and girlfriend and muse and best friend and best-selling writer all rolled into one big shiny golden package. Oh, and she's a single mom so she gets props for that. It's easy to admire and envy VeryModern but she is much of a muchness and I want my own, thank you very much. I suck at being a sycophant. I also suck at being a wife and girlfriend. But my boyfriend would disagree and for that I am very grateful. |