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By hollywoodfox Date: 2004 Sep 07 Comment on this Work [[2004.09.07.03.08.32527]] |
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I've never been caught before In a web of lies In a compromising position But there's always a first time. I wasn't prepared. It strips away everything Integrity Hope Trust And leaves you more naked Than on the day you were born. He didn't love me And somehow, Somehow, I knew that. He may have loved the idea of me, I'll never know. I told him (amid our panicked words) That I must never see him again His only response was "I'm sorry," as he Showed me his pained face And the door. I knew from the start That we weren't meant to be there, Together, him and I, But did I subconsciously Sabotage it to prove I'm always right? When I was stumbling towards the car, Heartshattered, I dramatically whispered for you to not call me. I couldn't stand to hear your voice. I couldn't bear my eyes to look at yours Both burdened with shame. As I drove away, I screamed for my sanity And wondered why the hell things Turned out the way they did. We made the right decision...once. Not this time. "Blame me," I had said, "It Looks like my fault anyways." But it had been both of us, Consenting and longing For something we didn't deserve, Something we weren't allowed. I just lost the one thing I was ever willing to admit that I wanted. I lost you, mon cheri. When you breathe fire you will eventually be consumed by the flames. I'll be waiting by the telephone with scorch marks on my lips. |