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By Misti Date: 2005 May 31 Comment on this Work [[2005.05.31.02.11.5925]] |
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ignore the hole in your heart pretend like you don't know it's there when fear has you by the throat and you can't sleep and you want to eat all the books on the shelves and you want to kill all the people who have harmed your man in any way when you know you are a failed goddess when you know your methods your magic have not worked have not sustained if no drugs are available if the county is dry if there are no girlfriends to call and say Girl I Need Help you can search online for the only jobs you feel up to anymore sleaze writer phone sex operator tabloid proofreader you can read poems that have been published and lauded you can play games you can masturbate anything to forget for a few moments that you are married to a man who is in chronic pain and you are living with his grandmother who makes noises down the hall all night long and there are bills to pay and there is no money and you have run out of places to run to and the clock is ticking and fate is sticking it to you and you have lost your faith ignore all of that concentrate on this pebbles tossed into the abyss don't make a sound. |