By Misti
Date: 2005 Jun 01
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I Want To Be

I want to be the model on page 15, letter E
of the VSD 2003 holiday casual catalog
so carefree and effortlessly sexy
in a spruce mock turtleneck sweater
and mod A-line mini
with zipped up stiletto knee-high boots
with my body by Victoria
and my face by M.A.C.
giving all my secrets away for free
and not asking
for anything back

I want to be a trashy hard-lovin'
whiskey guzzlin'  rode hard and put up wet
divorce court with no alimony or child support
vet smoking and swapping war stories in prison
with the blues laid out in tattoos on both arms
my charms reduced to crude jokes about anatomy
and a canny understanding of The System and how
to cheat it at every turn even on the inside

I want to be the bony pointy-nosed bitch
on "Jeopardy"  who knows about politics
and all the Presidents and archaeology
and the history of the whole wide world beginning
with the first flesh melted witch

I want to be the yoga practicing eight glasses
of water a day drinking clear thinking natural
blond size zero vegan native Californian with a
professionally decorated modern split-level
in Malibu with a dog or two and an occasional
boything named Alex who sends me dewy
white roses every January sixteenth because
I'm a double Capricorn with Venus in Pisces
and a 36DD without
the silicone

I want to be at peace with myself like Madonna
I want to be madly in love with life like Drew Barrymore
I want to be downloaded upgraded created
to be destroyed
the whole of female consciousness
without the pesky void.