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By Cryingshame58 Date: 2005 Nov 23 Comment on this Work [[2005.11.23.18.38.7345]] |
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I have no idea where you are. Everytime I write a message for someone at work and I write today's date, I say a little prayer for you...For years I picture what ifs...What if I had married you? You gave me the chance to stop you and I didn't stop you from it...I had already moved on and deep down I knew you had too...But what if I had stopped you...Would have I moved 500 miles away with you?? Would you have decided to remain here because of my strong family ties? I know that every year you come back to town for your birthday and Thanksgiving...I often wonder if we will bump into each other and my ego always thought that something deep inside of you would inspire you to pick up the telephone and call me...There was that time you emailed me thru classmates.com... That made my day, but that has been about five years ago...I emailed you back, but you never emailed me again...Both emails were innocent, but maybe NOT....Would we be able to keep it innocent? Some believe a kiss exchanged with our breath and our tongues meshes our souls together forever...I never admitted to you that our first kiss was my first kiss...If I ever get the chance, that is just one of the things I would want to tell you...I did feel the electricity, chemistry and I was extremely attracted to you...When I saw the want in your blue bad boy eyes, I would feel the blood rush to my face....I was excited and scared at the same time, but my innocence was worth keeping. I loved you more because you respected and loved me enough that you never pushed your desires...I knew that I wasn't ready to explore or experience what you seemed to want...Were my defenses more than you could bare? My cousin keeps me informed about you...About a year ago she told me you asked if I was divorced...I have no clue what she has told you because she didn't approve of us...When I was introduced to your wife at a highschool graduation for her nephew and my cousin's son's graduation, she said you would have loved to have seen and talked with me...She seemed very confident that she wouldn't have been concerned if we talked....It's getting near dinner time and I wonder where you will eat your birthday dinner...Will you have candles and a cake? Will you make a wish? Whatever you wish, I hope it comes true. |