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By lilla Date: 2006 Apr 11 Comment on this Work [[2006.04.11.08.13.16976]] |
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its more than a month now. a few days before my birthday. some hours before i leave for home. here I am. left alone running in circles. restless in self-drawn circles. the ones I was free enough not to draw. but gee I have drew it anyway. and got lost with it. i think I heard a friend said softly to me " to wait for it to just go away". seize the moment, and that the short wait is comforting. there is sweetness each time we are together. the appreciation of the beauty of the scary, unpredictable possibilities. the filthy works of a dirty mind: jesus, just let me hold his hand, a short embrace so I could feel the warmth of his body next to mine. and that one gentle kiss that I could plant on his lips. one night, just one, please. somebody told me to watch it fade. but geez, it is still freaking there. stronger. wilder. tt just wouldn't go away. its more than a month now. a few days before my birthday. some hours before i leave for home. cant take the distance. cant stand the heat. cant find myself in my own dream. god, just please dont wake me up. |