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By lilla Date: 2006 May 30 Comment on this Work [[2006.05.30.00.59.23039]] |
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yes, i swore. gave my marriage more chances, and i did. didnt work quite right. and i swore again. to let go of my childhood dream. being married with six kids in tow. i swore one more time. to love and give myself away. 5 years, and was mistaken another time. And no one knew, how bad this one hurt. So bad. Just so bad. Bad. To cry one's self to sleep. Bad enough. Not to let Sophie find about it. And simply say, croaches bit Mommmy's eyes. (made very good reputation --- and got away with it) Then I swear again. Fallen badly to a friend. I tried to tell you that I love you. Just when I told you, I shut the door right away. Afraid of both, a yes and a no. And yes, I swore quite awful many times. Dont wanna swear one last time. Still, i love you. But please try to find me now. I am just as lost as you are. Tell me now what we would become. Baby, I dont swear when I dont mean it. I only swear when I do. It breaks me to pieces, but let me swear, I love you one more time. And when youre ready to take it, keep it. Please come down, nah, dont hold my hand ---- just kiss me. Kiss me hungrily --- only when you find me. Please find me, baby. Please, here now .... quick...... (first time to write, and submit a poem impromptu) |