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By CryingShame58 Date: 2007 Jun 16 Comment on this Work [[2007.06.16.11.28.12440]] |
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Today I sit in deep thought in wonder as I often do. I wonder what you are really thinking as you sit across the table from me. How do you perceive me? Do you see the woman I've become or do you see a glimpse of the young vibrant teenage girl I was....I'm still that same girl down deep in my soul, but I've become more....so much more, and as time goes by I hope to charm you so much that you will want stay in my life here in this world...My spirit still soars each time I am face to face with you...Can you read that in my face? Life has molded and folded me into who I am today. I've been distracted and reacted during negative periods that i'm in a way happy you never saw me that way...But what truly matters to me, is what you think and feel about me today....Long ago we spent our times talking heart to heart, laughing and we set our safety net around us....I don't know where our boundaries are now, but i want to find out...I am a work in progress and God knows I have improved since i was a girl...The girl that didn't know anything, but hoped to resolve and evolve....The day you walked out of my life--I missed you...the little piece you gave me of yourself, i cherished it and held it close....Over the years I would remember and stuff it back deeper so I wouldn't lose those precious times of youth. I would remember your warm brown eyes looking deep into my soul and how time didn't mean the same as it does today....I never expected that you would walk back into my life...And when you did last summer, I couldn't and can't get enough of you....however, as I think about us now...I don't feel that comfort--that safety net...Maybe I'm scared you will go away again...There I said it...I'm scared...fear really can mess me up...I want you know who I am today. That whatever life and the ole devil sends to me I see and reach to find the sweet things in life. God, you were a sweet thing then and no doubt you are one of the sweetest things in life for me today...Can I be your sweet thing? |