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By lilla Submitted by lilla Date: 2007 Jun 27 Comment on this Work [[2007.06.27.13.45.13242]] |
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funny how we started. we were not really old friends. we were two young dreamers in different worlds. i came from the bronx, your life was in beverly hills. i know you get piqued each time i tell you that. may be that made me too interesting for you :) so i caught your eye. but then, i was a young girl so much in love at that time so twas really impossible for me to notice anyone else not even you. you said you regret those times when you could have at least tried to tell me your intentions. me, i have none. i was preparing myself to be a young bride after schooling. well, at least that was something i planned and got. situations were different then as it is now. ~~~ some situations got in the way. i guess, thats the way it goes for us even until now. a minute can change a lifetime. how much more twenny years. while its kinda cute for you to think of that girl in high school, i remember you being the cute geek who never knew he was eye-candy to many girls from your school and mine. syempre, care ko naman dun he he i just have to live the life i have now. you lived your life, too. and NYC is where you belong now. situations are still between us. if it was simple then, now not anymore. adult world is too complex. honestly, i dont like it. but then again, we live the life we chose to live. the past year was like 20 years to me. you know exactly what i mean by that. when i could have easily taken you into my life in the package that you want, your friendship is too damned good. i wouldnt trade it for anything, less or even more than that ... you know why... when this is over when i sleep normal when drugs flushed out and i have that high school girl's life back i wanna keep that wide orange skye embracin me puttin me to bed with a peaceful smile smacked on my face. when all this is done youd understand all the things i told you about the chains i carry of why i couldnt take you yet keep that love for someone who never loved me back. at least for now, with him ... is a battle am getting used to but what i dread to face is that day when id see myself crying again not for a lover who broke my heart but for losing a friend after falling in love with him. i will not let this happen between us so, cheer up dude while am not your significant other you are my significant friend. |