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By lilla Date: 2007 Aug 15 Comment on this Work [[2007.08.15.12.44.12283]] |
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not every person who volunteers information about me or you or us or this and that ~~~ you will have to believe. that is why you always always have the wrong judgment on many things especially about me or you or us and this and that. not every person that comes to you and claim that he or she is concern about me or you or us and this and that mean well. bad motives are never easy to check as they are purposely guised as " i care for her, you, both and this and that". ... because of all that was said and done to me, to you, to us, and this and that, how come it went this bad, ugly, dirty, sad, lonely, hurtful. the truth is he or she wanted a piece of me, of you, of us, of this and that. other people only know bits and pieces. each of us have own interests to pursue but at the end of the line, the truth belongs only to me, to you, to us. and God only as lone witness to all that. i will not hold them responsible for what happened to me, to you, to us and this and that. you killed it with it prejudice and lies. i killed it too with all my fears of those prejudice and lies. if you only trusted more. if only i trusted less. things probably wouldn't be turnin' this way. who knows ... we could at least have a real friendship to comfort us both ... ... but i guess at this time ... am too damaged ... too untrusting ... ... i dont think 'am even ready for that. remember ~~~ i caught fire and you just watched me burned. ... that doesn't measure up to something as beautiful as friendship. so about me, you, us and this and that ~~~ i dunno know for now. and baby, this hurt really bad. |