By lilla
Date: 2007 Aug 24
Comment on this Work
[[2007.08.24.07.53.8189]]

ashfall.

i don’t want to know you.
the way you were talked about
i wish to know you
in your own fashion
to see you crazy happy
each time you talk about the good life
and see sadness or even tears
about your hurts and the reasons why
i  love to listen all day
to plans that did not turn out
and cheer you, lead you on
for dreams that are still out for grabs.

i am tired of hearing
of things that you said
whether true or not
they were all unpleasant
much so stories of who’s keeping you now
coz sure you wouldn't want to hear mine either
we both do not have the right
so why should we even care about that.

a few times, you know, I did try
to clear the air between us
yet in many ways than one
you always always turn your back around
but please remember
every single word that reaches me
every deed done to wrong me
is a step away from you
block more roads, burn more bridges
another brick on the wall
between us.

and yes I used to love you from from afar
i didn’t mind before so why should I now
id keep it neatly tuck under my pillow
and try again to dream of good ones about you
of the man I used to believe in instead of the one I was told about
think of sweet things I long wish to hear from you
and not the ugly ones they all try to lift
from your tedious, painful silence or even may be
from a few words that you spoken.

so lemme me push myself deeper into slumber
and instead of having the pleasure of watching me burn
turn your face away so would not see me break
just lemme grow myself scarce
and baby, please don't ...
catch my ashes as they fall.