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By Lilla Date: 2008 Feb 24 Comment on this Work [[2008.02.24.07.29.23105]] |
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First night started and ended useless. You got abducted by a buck-teeth alien which brought you to Nevahlang. And so I was left with nothing, and decided to cap that evening with a much-need detox the following morning. Second night started useless, with a lil bit of somethin' somewhere in the middle ...I honestly wanted to leave with GF and BF much earlier in the evening but GF gave me tat "stay-there-and-make-this-a-moment" look. I played silly ... and took my chances. You made your choice that night. I wasnt part of it so I grabbed my bag and left all by myself. That was really sweet of yah ... really sweet of yah. Oh yeah, the night ended useless, too. Last, i always keep prayers in my pocket. Hope shines like hope shines. There was a plan, a really simple one. The night started great ... beyond optimism. May be because at first you were just on your own as your groupie was sorta busy with their respective assignments ... i felt i was such a gate-crasher ... a famous, useful gate-crasher. But then your bro started like ... PEP talk with yah again ... some phone calls ... all clear signals for me. So there, I got hope from my pocket and tuck it under my shoe. Three nights ... and its all over again, huh. I guess my fault, i had expectations, positive expectations. I remember the 14th, i kept myself home, tuck myself to bed, no nothings. I lull myself to sleep, thinkin' hey its valentines day, he must be havin a great grand time with his girl (even if there really isnt a girl, or there is, old or new, one or two, or may be more, perhaps someone imaginary even)... it is best to think that way. When hope takes a detour, I dunno, it is jusz less painful (at least for me, for now). |