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By chris Date: 2008 Jun 15 Comment on this Work [[2008.06.15.20.32.13664]] |
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Light a cigarette from the one that's still burning; light another. Watch the clock on the wall in the kitchen. Wait. Isn't it slow? Or is it actually five minutes fast? Never trust yard sale clocks. Look out the window. Notice the high, thin clouds over the city that seem to not be moving at all and yet weren't there an hour ago. Or were they? Watch the temperature rise on the patio thermometer. Listen to the quickening urgency of the wind in the Ponderosa Pine. Realize there is absolutely nothing that needs to be done. Start making dinner at noon - or at least start thinking about it. Have this unnecessary conversation with an acquaintance from work: "Did you just call my cell?" "No." "Oh." "Why did you think I did?" "Lately I've been missing calls. Verizon is apparently having issues." "Really." "Yeah." "So what's going on?" "Nothing." "Same here." "Guess I'll see you Monday." "OK." Watch your thoughts; watch where they go. Remain positive, but don't think things that will make you feel TOO good. That's bad. Be disciplined. Pretend you're in training for some esoteric, triathlon-type event that requires purity of the mind and body. Wait, you smoke. Crap. Forget it, then (the esoteric, triathlon-type event, that is). If you insist on getting out you can always drive to Giant for another pack of Reds. Doesn't hurt to stockpile for those rainy days you never have there. Don't forget the pictures. Do something with them. In their present location - computer desk, wall shelf first seen when you walk into the room - they are a liability. Pay particular attention to the ones where you appear so happy. Tell yourself it was just a trick of the mind - like hands on a clock or clouds that show up out of nowhere. |