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By Lilla Date: 2008 Jun 22 Comment on this Work [[2008.06.22.11.40.20450]] |
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i dunno know what's with me these days. there's somezin' about me tinkerin thru old mails ... old-fashioned letters ... and electronics. may be that fever that struck me for days of trying to close some of my sites, those i jusz needed to put up with jusz becoz i got invited by some friends, imfeverished after one of my accounts got hacked again . there's this certain calm in me today. Jusz make me wanna forgive tat dirty ol' hacker. Let go of the thought that am so damned special ... who nows ... everyone in this earth gets halked, stalked, posed at each time this planet spins. life must be like that. who am i to think am so damned extra-ordinary. so, there ... last stop ... gmail ... where my electronic business correspondences normally go through ... September 2006 ... i was in new york city. twas one of the few and may be the last decent communication i had with him. that was cordial. a little fun. it went really fast. i saved in my draft folders that last IM ... may be a premonition of things to come ... and came. a month after i took a flight to Manila to bury my mother. he took his, back to his girl. five moons after those IMs, things went really bad between us. then ... the deafening silence. ohhhh tears .... 19 months after ... i left. my first summer away and alone jusz passed. typhoon frank is here ... my first ... away and alone. it's been stormy for two years now. |