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By Lilla Date: 2008 Nov 19 Comment on this Work [[2008.11.19.00.34.6254]] |
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Ohhh that film again, it was his favorite movie. I know ive seen it long before we were together as a couple. I was in relationships. He was trying to get a girl ... some girl … whoever girl. We were grade school classmates in the province hahaha … he said he liked me na 1st grade pa lang. He wasn’t a cute little boy at all. I didn’t notice him. And besides naman, we were just 6 – 7 year old probinsyano kids … I liked the 5th grader boy fair, chinito, intelligent, and speaks English fluently haha. I was in 4th grade when I left for Gapo. Gapo was really fun. My birth right was in Cavite … my heart belongs to Gapo. Oh well, You know that part when two bunch of kids who grew up and lived their lives separately then suddenly one moment both of you would show up again in each others lives … and that connection will change things too drastically. We met in CITEM 18 years after. He was amazed to see me. He brought our class pic. That was funny and sweet. I had 4 boyfriends all at the same time, I didn’t need another one. And not him hahah. He wasn’t my type. I was playing the field. He was a virgin, for God’s sake. On the basis of childhood history, what do you know …. he became my bestfriend. He took good care of me. Mom entrusted me to him. Mom was kampante when I drink with the boys and he was around. Hed bring me home safe when am too drunk to even get myself up. Hed watched the wash room for me to make sure that no other man followed me through. He knew … banyos are my fave make-out hideaways so he was kinda strict with me each time Id excuse myself to go to the toilet. I was the pasaway bestfriend, he was very suspicious, and over protective. He did a good job, I must say. I knew about his frustrating silly attempts to score with girls. The kind of women you wouldn’t even want to lay your hands on hahaha …. He was amused by how easy it was with me with men hahaha. He was still then too painfully shy for a man in his mid twennies. While, I was T M T H … I was slippery as a mudfish … I would date anyone I wanted to but would not commit … not even to that one guy I was so stupidly in love with. I was 22, he was 17. That wasn’t easy. Bestfriend never liked him for me. I didn’t care. He broke my heart eventually. I’ve got bestfriend’s dark skinny shoulders to cry on. He cursed me for playing stupid. He kinda saw me through my relationships, pregnancy, marriage, break-ups. We’ve got one hell of a story. And so that film again. And yeah, that potting wheel was to die for. We swore to get one, where we could make dirty mushy love hahahah. And we’ll call our daughter, Molly-Anne, with a dash hahaah. He was a nice guy. But I was falling out on our 5th year. We struggled to be together. I dunno but some things were not the same anymore. He wanted so many things from me. Get married, have kids, live together, go to America. I only wanted my bestfriend back. We broke-up in 2004. He left some seven months after. I remember crying so hard, not because a lover broke my heart … because I wasn’t as ready to be his bestfriend again. So I kinda lost him, and he sorta lost me in the process. I used to describe our break-up to be dirty, ugly, stinky. Forget it! I just want to remember the bestfriend I once had. He still visits my site. Bok said he must still be in love with me. I’d say sorry for that … Im now in love with someone else la la la. Seriously, he probably wants to make amends (not to mention that my site is really intriguing, interesting ;) ). No sweat. I prefer peace and quiet with him. I think that was a picture of his newborn son … he looks very much like his father. So hummmm, going back to that potting wheel, I asked Banana Gurl where I could get one. I am not giving up on it. I am seriously planning to have one. Wanna get some clay and get dirty. Id be 39 next year, I have Sophie and I been around. Am gonna go make so pots. |