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By aparajita Date: 2010 Aug 31 Comment on this Work [[2010.08.31.21.03.18049]] |
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in the middle of rush hour traffic, there you were. mental image and sensory overload. instantly time stood still for the last "too many years to think about". and, there you were. an unwanted reminder of what can't ever be now. all possibilities lost. forever gone. this appearance it's been a few years since you haunted. poked the bear that resides in your place of my heart. teased me with the memories that, it seems, will never go away. thank you God for time. i'm certain it was my intentional decision to move. not run away as i'm also certain your ego chanted. moved several hundreds of miles away, i did. and, this move has been good for me. very good. since you've now found me again in my dreams, both day and night, i'm beginning to believe there won't be a place far enough away. at least now i can't possibly accidentally bump into you... see you with HER (can't wait until the day when HER is no longer in capital letters)... everywhere i go. it helps, it truly does, this distance. i hate you now more than you were loved... i think. despite your sudden reappearance into my psyche, i know i'm better. this time, it doesn't hurt near as bad as the last dark period. in fact, now that i digest and really dissect this, it wasn't so dark after all. maybe a darkish dusk... but most absolutely not the darkest dark of despair of where i've been. finally. i. am. healing. this is good. and, it appears to be true. i will be over you. eventually. |