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By CryingShame58 Date: 2014 Feb 03 Comment on this Work [[2014.02.03.01.46.6248]] |
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It's worse than getting a lump in the throat or feeling that empty pit deep in the core of the stomach. Maybe it's the mix of both along with the signals pounding through my brain... Well, I felt it as soon as I saw you standing there. I was as a frozen statue but I kept walking. I wanted to turn an about face and run but at the same time I wanted to see more of your face as it turned to look toward the traffic passing beside you. I was bombarded with these overwhelming feelings that I wanted to push aside that I thought I'd worked through and were diminished. But one sight of you and I was flooded with sick emotions. None of them were positive whatsoever. So why would I be desiring to see you flash your smile at me? Or hear your deep voice call my name? Not now, not ever, but why now? How can I be so conflicted when at the end you brought me such misery and pain? Here's my chance to show you. Will you see through me? Is this just fear that you will reject me before I can reject you? It's definitely fear. Ok, I've discovered I fear you and it's nothing else. I remember a good time, yes-but know you will only bring me pain. So here goes. I'm going to face this - YOU BBBUUUUUZZZZZZZZZZ alarm went off, I was only dreaming again... |