From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=890">Hcat</a><BR>
Date: 7 September 2002<P>

Oh my, there's just to many...<BR>
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Jon - "To Whom it May Concern", God... take me I'm yours? (Just don't let my Gene know that...)<BR>
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TJ - You're TRULY welcome! I meant every word about you three!<BR>
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To all - I went thru here and added all my favorite writters on this board to my favorites, and I've spent the last couple hours just reading. There's far to many, I can't even remember some of the titles. Rennie, Galadrial, TJ, MusicalDuck, Splatipus, Muryan, Bridget O, Violet, Scqueen, Jackryhme, Whisper, Jon, Kirk, Varda, Misti... And I can't remember some of the names. Just wowed me. All of you. <BR>
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Varda - Marriage. When you've matured enough to believe that love takes work, and not just romance, then yes. Lifelong love/marriage IS possible. When you LOVE enough to care enough to put effort, strength, WORK, into love and marriage, yes. Lifelong love/marriage is possible. I can't say I have the greatest examples in the world (my parents are divorced) but at the same time, I can. My mother loves a man who's been more of a father to me than MY FATHER. But they're not married. She knows he doesn't want to be married again, so she just loves him. They have the SAME struggles a marriage would have. The doubts, the fears, the arguements, the hurts. But they continue. For better or for worse. Unspoken Vows. <BR>
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And my grandparents. Marries for over 50 years. My grandfather STILL watches a younger, prettier girl walk by, whistles, and turns his head to Grandma to say, "Cute. Good thing I've got the most beautiful woman right by my side." Yes. Lifelong love/marriage is possible. Work for it. Earn it. Appreciate it.<BR>
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Rennie - Wow. Thank you. I do prefer honesty. In everything, even when it hurts. For even thru the pain, it makes life simpler, maybe easier. And if you like MY brutal honesty, lol, you should see the work of the man I write of.<BR>
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BeckyAnn - email me. I'd love to hear about the other side, maybe it might ease some of my frustration ;o)<BR>
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Jenilee - (by the way, it's spooky, that name is my sister's dear friend from School. I keep thinking you might be her. I apologize if you're a he LOL) I've just realized, here is how I get things off my chest. I have a tendency to NOT show him what I write. So, if I post it here, and mention he should check. He does. Gotta say... maybe his reactions really are worth it... As for reworking things. Yes... I've got one poem that I keep adding to. It's never finished. I keep rewording, keep rethinking, reanalyzing, Did I really feel that way, then??  Maybe I will post it, and post changes. Don't know yet.<BR>
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Kirk - Haven't read it all (haven't read HALF!) but I am SOOOOOOO intriged by the story of you and 'R.' Intriged, fascinated... Can't wait to finish it.<BR>
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By the way, Congrats to all the front page picks! You all deserved it, Awesome writtings!<BR>
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=890">Hcat</a><BR>
Date: 7 September 2002<P>

Ah yes, remembered one I forgot. <BR>
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It doesn't matter - "The B&B's" Incredible. I couldn't look away. Completely glued to it, start to finish.<BR>
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=890">Hcat</a><BR>
Date: 7 September 2002<P>

Dang, forgot, sorry for more posts!<BR>
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Happy (late) Birthday Peoples!!!
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=900">RennieLorca</a><BR>
Date: 7 September 2002<P>

Hcat~~ so good to see you put those feelings into real words instead of unvoiced fears. My (deceased) husband had two real "loves" who made a real impact on his life before we met. He was a bachelor for a long time because he had not fallen out of love with them. The first "love" was an idealistic worship of a beautiful woman. She will forever be left on a pedestal, as they parted without harsh words. The second "love" years later, him realizing the first would never re-enter his life. This second one broke his heart. He had all the "right" reasons for loving her. She had not recovered from a former "bad" marriage enough to open her heart to any love. She eventually broke his heart. Years of listening to him mention (in feigned jest) her breaking his heart finally had me asking him to visiting her when he was in her adopted town. He did, the spark was no longer there for him. He realized in just the first few seconds of seeing her. What he had pined for, imagined of them together, just never would have existed other than in his mind. No more wondering what might have been. That came about (splatipus) just before our sixth anniversary. A memorable one in him finally and wholly feeling he had what he wanted in his life. I had always written, but from then on I put my thoughts on paper and gave him the chance to read and digest them. The ability to communicate (kindly) is key to any relationship. Good for you in doing this, Hcat ... and thanks ..... Rennie
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=900">RennieLorca</a><BR>
Date: 7 September 2002<P>

P.S. Hcat~~ I have decided to make any relationship I am in about me and that one person. Everyone else can come happily into our lives, or be inconsequential to us. Comparing old lovers is like comparing apples and oranges in my experiences. I just need to be the right fruit for the picking and vice versa ..... Rennie
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=890">Hcat</a><BR>
Date: 7 September 2002<P>

Ah, Rennie... ;o) Tis happy times indeed, for he loves me! lol<BR>
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He chased her for years, she never glanced his way. He stopped after her, and sought me. She decided he was THE ONE for her. She made a mistake, in confusing him. She wrote a letter full of pining and hurt. She asked a question she should never have uttered.<BR>
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He finally realized, could finally see<BR>
She was not all he'd imagined her to be<BR>
She was not for him, for she'd changed so<BR>
She would never do, she had to go ;o)<BR>
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Oopsy lol But thank you for encouraging me. I don't know if I'll tell him to check and see if there's anything new. I don't know if I want him seeing it. He still doesn't know it hurt me. He knows I was bothered...... but again, thank you.<BR>
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God bless,<BR>
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Oh, P.S.<BR>
You and your husband sound wonderful. Much wisdom gained from life and experience. Thank you for sharing it.
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=23">Kirk</a><BR>
Date: 7 September 2002<P>

Read through what I'd posted of the K+R last night...it's always kind of funny thinking about how I've read certain letters in certain ways. There are a lot of times when she was pretty clear about wanting things to discontinue, but I tended to persevere, for sometimes better, oft times worse. But it was those better times that kept me at it...<BR>
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I just read Nick Hornby's "Fever Pitch", I think autobiograpical, about the guys long term obsession with his soccer team Arsenal. (A bit different from the movie, and didn't have the "Bill, it's not the smoking [that explains why you won't be a professional football player]...it's the crapness" I was hoping to use on <a href="http://kisrael.com">http://kisrael.com</a> )  The book made me think about how the kind obsessive applied to my feelings torward R. It's not the best side of me...
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=900">RennieLorca</a><BR>
Date: 7 September 2002<P>

Kirk~~ enjoying the read on the K-R e-mails. Interesting to learn what shaped the host of our Blender webhome for romance. Even more interesting to go back later and read your thoughts further in retrospect in the years to come -- hopefully. Good for Mo that the affectionate frog prince didn't wind-up feeling like a frog in a blender over love. I think obsessiveness is passion misunderstood when it comes to love. If not for passion and being obsessed with someone, we might have had zero population growth and no Blenderites from the get-go.<BR>
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Hcat~~ thanks. He's been dead five years the 15th of this month. It is always best to do the talking while you have the chance.<BR>
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Lots of fine submissions this week. Still reading and enjoying each ..... Rennie
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=6">it dosent matter</a><BR>
Date: 7 September 2002<P>

lol the B&B were never finnished, just waiting to see if they were still of intrest but i do thank you Hcatfor the comments
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=900">RennieLorca</a><BR>
Date: 7 September 2002<P>

it do*~~ you're AWOL on the B&B far as we are concerned ... sure we're interested. You taking lessons from Jean Auel on delaying the new stuff? This is bad as having to watch our fav TV show in steady reruns while waiting for the juicy new stuff from you. Hurry up! Don't make us go superfans on you and chain you to the keyboard for more .. k? .. :) .. 'course we are interisted ..... Rennie 
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=890">Hcat</a><BR>
Date: 7 September 2002<P>

I'm sorry, Rennie. I hadn't clued into that. My sincerest apologies. You're right, 'talk while you still can.' <BR>
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It doesn't count - GOOD! glad it's not DONE! I couldn't have stood having to wonder, even if it starts a whole new storyline in my head. HUUUUUUURRRRRRRYYYYYY... wanna read more! ;o)
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=436">Jon</a><BR>
Date: 7 September 2002<P>

Liz~one more day...just one more day. Hehe ;-)<BR>
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muryan~right back at cha. :-)<BR>
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Rennie~I finally put the pictures away in a shoe box. I love stuffing momentos in them.<BR>
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Hcat~I won't tell Gene if you don't. ;-) lol jk.<BR>
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Okay...I've got some serious reading to do to catch up on all of the latest submissions. Enjoying them all so far. Except for one..yeah just one. lol jk ;-P<BR>
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Take care and all that so alive stuff<BR>
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-Jon
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