From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=900">RennieLorca</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

awwwwww, butterfly~ <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2003.05.11.23.13.707">Bitter Sweet Dreams</a> too sad. Here I was muttering about the scuff marks on my ruby slippers and thinking myself almost as miserable as my poor little storm shell-shocked pup ... then I read your work ..... Rennie<BR>
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=644">wordley</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

Rennie<BR>
        Thank you for your kind words, as you say, and as I know, there is no time frame for any kind of healing, it was merely my choice of words in this condensed version of her life, I have no doubt that one day Mr. Right will appear, I just want Leah to be ready emotionally, for I have no doubt he will complete her healing. Until then, I am there for any support needed, not forced, just waiting.<BR>
                                Many thanks, wordley <BR>
              
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=644">wordley</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

Indefensible sushi!!<BR>
                     Really, i'm shocked!!.....behave!!<BR>
 Wordley
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=1223">butterfly03</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

Rennie~ <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2003.05.12.04.22.29598">PLEASE LEND HER GRACE</a> was breath taking and familiar. Thanks a million for gracing us with it's presence.<BR>
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To everyone who had a rough weekend... may you feel the sun on your face today and it's warmth in your heart. 
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=900">RennieLorca</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

butterfly~ thanks so much. Would have been better if I had used a corrected copy here with "hide himself in deadly sport" inside of the "hid" ... like "malace" instead of the correct "malice" in another work recently. These storms have me unhinged for editing. But what you wrote inspired me to go ahead and post the Grace work. Sun's out today! ....<BR>
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wordley~ the "right" fella coming in is sooner recognized by the heart than the mind. But IF really right, will be recognized and taken in given due time. Recognizing you loved something that others call vile or bad makes one wonder at their own mind and romantic capabilities. They hang in there too long to try and correct something that can't be corrected, hence suffering. Putting thoughts into written words is a first step since feelings are usually chaotic all during this. I'd encourage her to also write since it's always helped me. Sometimes, sharing the healing process is even more precious to the couple that is meant to be. I applaud your desire to help. I admire your poem (to Leah) in that sense ..... Rennie<BR>
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=644">wordley</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

Rennie,<BR>
      Once again I thank you for your words, but is not the heart the home of all emotion? Anyway, I will suggest taht putting words down is a good way to exorsise old demons....and I'll watch and wait...<BR>
 wordley
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=900">RennieLorca</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

wordley~ yes, but the mind warns us not to passionately put the dagger in your heart when you've heartlessly broken ours :) ... or so we think, or not ..... Rennie
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=1174">Dana</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

bp: <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2003.05.08.17.12.15607">Love in the Winter</a> WOW! really painted a picture!<BR>
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Kase: <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2003.05.08.19.21.28060">My Little BoogieMan</a>was adorable. Happy Mother's Day!!<BR>
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Champagne: <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2003.05.09.04.46.21890">Human  "COMPASS"</a> Made me smile.<BR>
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mysteriousone07: <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2003.05.09.17.10.29283">Limited</a> Don't be so hard on yourself. I'm sure he understands down deep inside. <BR>
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footballdude: <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2003.05.09.17.37.4888">Might not live to see another day!</a> So true. I'm truly sorry for your loss. 
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=900">RennieLorca</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

jim~ okay, rather than abuse your muse, there's some more word fodder from a trite princess :) load that cannon and write. My Captain's taking down the sails and overhauling as an ironclad ..... Rennie
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=1131">indefensible sushi</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

Chicks dig jerks. Thus spake Sushi.
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=487">bp</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

Dana thank you so much for taking the time to read then comment...I just hope that it was a good picture..<BR>
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bp
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=900">RennieLorca</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

sush~ "chicks dig" ... but the old gals usually put the e-tool down when they get to six feet :) ..... Rennie
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=1139">jwb71913</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

Rennie,<BR>
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Be careful what you ask for, you just might get it.  Twelve pounders are loaded and there's a real gun belowdecks.<BR>
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jim
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=900">RennieLorca</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

jim~ lol ... George, you want to edit that straight line again before I reply? :) ..... Gracie
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=4">tj holland</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

I forgot to mention that <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2003.05.12.15.43.7822">I Will Enter</a> was inspired by Violet's <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2003.05.12.10.35.20417">waiting </a>. Thanks Violet. Your words touched me.<BR>
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-Teej
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=900">RennieLorca</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

teej and violet~ both your words were impressive ... thank you for those reads ..... Rennie
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=487">bp</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

TJ and Violet I'm w/ Rennie on this great job...<BR>
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bp
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=943">jessica</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

Aparajita-Thanks for the advice about me seeking an adult, but my language is just fine for me! Im sorry if u dont think it isnt, but for me it is perfectly ok!!And i dont think i need to seek an adult...even though it is good advice, i think im ok! i mean yes i do hate my life, but i dont think im gonna need help!<BR>
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RennieLorca-thanx, yes i know that alot of ppl think i should ask an adult! but that just isnt how i am! but thatnx for the advice! it was appreciated!And the part about crying....WOW it has been such a LONG time sence i have cryed! u see i make everyone think im strong...liek i have no feelings so i really dont cry much! but i wish that i could!!<BR>
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Carol-Well im not really worried bout it, i was just tired of lieing i figured that i should be able to have my privacy even though u and ur ass hoel b/f knew it was me(hehe u knwo that part is funny!) but u get what im saying i hope!!<BR>
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Butterfly03-Thanxs! so many ppl are telling me i should talk to an adult and i honestly dont know y!! i mean it isnt like im trying to hurt mself because my life i sthe way it is!! so if n e one of the ppl that think i should seek and adult...well if they coudl explain to me y that would be a big help!! i am a lil slow...u know blondeness!! lol but thanx for the advice seriously!!<BR>
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=900">RennieLorca</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

jessica/ligsil/ful~ good for you, but don't wait so long to cry that you risk drowning in your own tears ..... Rennie
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=205">Violet</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

Rennie and BP ~ Thanks a lot for your comments.<BR>
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Rennie..  <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2003.05.12.13.05.25983">PRINCESS MALICE</a>  is awesome!  Fantastic really...
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=328">Rhetoric</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

Not all "chicks" are into jerks. But, I was sucked into the vortex of a dream-weaver myself.<BR>
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The assholes are always so sexy because are biology tells us to seek the strong male. Unfortunately, it isn't until we have been at the end of that strong male's back hand that we realize what we REALLY need.<BR>
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Just my thoughts...<BR>
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Jen
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=1139">jwb71913</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

Thanks Rennie (Maggie),<BR>
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I needed a good laugh.  Load the twenty next time.<BR>
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Jim
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=911">Inflatable Sushi</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

"Chicks dig jerks*" - comedian Bill Hicks (not a fake fish)<BR>
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[* excellent song on one of his CDs]
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=1223">butterfly03</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

ful~ Please don't get upset if we think you should talk to an adult. I only think that because maybe they see a different perspective that might be interesting to you. I feel like I understand what you're going through because I have been there myself... not exactly the same I'm sure but I can relate. And even adults need to talk to "adults" sometimes. Sorrow sees no age. Please understand that all of us would not post comments about or to you if you were not truely cared about. Ful, hopefully you can weather the storm and you are in my prayers. If you're interested... please refer to <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2003.05.11.21.16.15904">Mirage (corrected)</a> and may you also find some comfort or settled feelings in this.<BR>
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Rennie~ <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2003.05.12.13.05.25983">PRINCESS MALICE</a> Should have been written about my ex-fiance... did you know him too?? Where are all the frog princes' with the glass slippers?! I think I forgot to send them my forwarding address.
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=1131">indefensible sushi</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

Also -<BR>
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"Wizards Have Landed*" <BR>
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[* another excellent song on one of his CDs]
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=900">RennieLorca</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

Violet~ <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2003.05.12.16.59.8673">love, love, love</a> another treat from you tonight = "dress me in shivers"<BR>
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butterfly~ sorry, I don't know him. I don't even know "jim" here (and I'm sure he's glad with the volleys). I want to be barefootin' on a beach instead of forcing myself into the pain of glass slippers at this point in my life :) ..... Rennie <BR>
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=1050">Kase</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

Jessica/ligsil/ful--Are you also Alan?  I thought I was right about the alias'....Honey, you are Jessica, be proud of that and stick to one name and it'll be easier to talk to you. :)  Okay, so you're 12...  You seem use a lot of vulgarities for a girl of your age.  I know you have a lot of mixed emotions and painful feelings right now, but you'll gradually work through it.  It seems to take forever for the teen years to pass, but you'll learn a lot of great (and painful) life lessons on the way.  I know you don't want to hear us tell you to talk to your parents, but what about a teen chat room?  There are other people your age that would love to talk to you, and maybe you'll feel like they can relate to you better than we can here.  If Carol is your sister (I think I understood that to be right ..?..)<BR>
she's had a rough time it seems, and when a family member goes through something as serious as mental or emotional problems, it can affect the whole family.  (Carol and Jessica-- Please don't think I'm saying Carol is a mental case, because I'm not.  My little boy's Dad has serious depression, and it affected everything and everyone in his family.)  I'm not trying to be nosy here, and you definately don't have to answer, but are your parents divorced?  That's something to think about and consider.  At you and your sister's ages, divorce is especially hard on the kids.  I think you and Carol need to talk to a counselor.  A counselor has to keep everything you tell her between just the two of you, and you wouldn't feel as weird talking about things to her as you would your parents, maybe.  Or maybe you and your sis just need to talk to each other......(A counselor could also help you with your feelings about Billy.)<BR>
   I've read both you and Carol's submissions, and there seems to be some hard feelings about a guy at some point in time...  She's your sister.. guys come and go, but your sister all always be there, whether you like it or not. You guys will fight about anything and everything before you get grown! (and probably after you're grown!) Me and my big brother had huge brawls, but we were always the first one to stick up for the other.<BR>
   Jess-- it scares the immortal hell out of me, the way you suggest sexual themes in some of your poetry at your age.  It wasn't too long ago I was in your shoes and I wanted to grow up fast, too.  I made a lot of mistakes I could have avoided if I'd just slowed down.  At 12, you need a different kind of love than what five minutes with a guy thats going to hurt you for 2 minutes of pleasure. (If you EVEN get 2 minutes of pleasure!  Sex is great when you're ALOT older and you really care about someone. Not when you just really want some guy to like you.)  To think of kids having sex at 12, it breaks my heart to think of little girls giving themselves up because of low self esteem, peer pressure, and waiting attention/affection.<BR>
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Sorry this was so long, everybody, I hope you listen to someone's advice, Jess, because for a 12 year old, you're not a bad writer and you have great potential to do whatever you want to with your life.  It's OK to ask for help, that's how you learn and how you grow smarter. <BR>
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__Kase___<BR>
ps--  You make yourself look unintelligent by using all the curses. It seems like you can't think of a simple word to express yourself, so you just curse... I've read your work and I know you're intelligent, so hold your head up and be proud that you're a smart girl!  Thinking of adjectives instead of "Fuck" would improve you quality of writing.  Those words are used here some, but not every other word.<BR>
pps--Hope you're not offended by this letter, because I'm sincerely hoping to help you and wish you and your family the best.
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=1223">butterfly03</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

Kase~ Re: Jessica... Amen and well said.
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=1223">Butterfly03</a><BR>
Date: 12 May 2003<P>

Ladyinwaiting~ Thank you for <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2003.05.12.21.23.27144">IF</a>. It was short and sweet but allowed my mind to travel. Hope my bump is OK. I'm new so from what I gather it is a "bump." I'm not sure about all the lingo, I just write my feelings.
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