Starofdavid - ouch. I feel bad for posting that now. trust me when i say that i have bee nwehre you are though, a couple times actually. and as rennie put it, one constant is change. and it will change, hopefully a little sooner than you hope. hang in there, it alwayhs takes time.
Do not say that, or feel bad at all. I love your writing.
lilla, about of ellipses ... and periods.:
I like this, lilla, it's reality, plain and simple ...... Rennie
hairdiva, about Past Tense:
do I every understand this one, and glad to have missed out on one like this in my life. He married, and his wife called me a couple of years later and tried to "give" him back to me since it wasn't working out with them. I didn't say it like you have here, and didn't remind her she was the one who spirited him away from me in the first place with a little smoke and mirrors (puns liberally intended) I wasn't into. Anyway, so happy for you today. Fresno? I'm often high above the Kern. Maybe we'll get a chance to see each other at some point, but it seems it's been far too hard to even get together with sweet aparajita for us, b.k. and three of us this direction. But it would be a treat ...... Rennie
Baby Rose, Ali: Thank you both!
Red eyes and tears and Ali ty both so much for your very sweet words, also red eyes I am so I am so happy that I connected with your feelings in this it is truly magical to me when that happens, star of david, you are more than welcome but there is no thanks necessary when I was at an extremely hard cross roads in my life I had a friend who seriously helped me and we started out as strangers just like this. I just wanted you to know sweetie that you are not alone in any of this, people truly do care about other people whether they know them or not we are all on the same level here....
Rennie, thank you for your words about Past Tense. Yeah, cruel, cruel ongoing messages from a person who was literally just a moment in my life, and not an especially good one. I've told him that I was soon to be married, but the messages continued. The funny thing is, he then told me he was to be married too, in the same message that he said how very much he misses me. One would think he was very young, but no.
Anyway, wow about your story. You can have him back? Huh, sorry hon it doesn't work like that, right?
Would love to get together with blenderites. I am always curious what everybody does, what everybody's lives are like, outside of this site. I also know that some of you have managed to get together. How awesome that would be!! Anyway, let me know when any of you are in my area. Would love to meet you!
Ali and Rennie, thanks for the congrats. I am absolutely thrilled. And by the way had a blast at the wedding. I'm a river rat from WAY BACK!!
Star of David, about Come Back:
I missed this one, but just read it thanks to comments on the board. I love it, especially "You are everywhere, even in coffee. I tried tea but I couldn’t bear losing you even more, so I switched back again." I have felt this way. Haven't we all? You captured it perfectly.
rennielorca, about BULLRIDERS AND SUCH: Hey Rennie!! My first husband was a bullrider! How they live in those moments forever!! Loved this piece!!
Star of David, about Come Back:
Oh, how I've been here before. For years. For years. Well written, and very real. Thanks for sharing, and hang in there.
Star of David, about Come Back:
oh wow do I ever know how this feels, last November the love of my life and father of my child left us for almost an entire year and we had never even been apart before for more than a day, there was something in him that had changed drastically to where he didn't even want to see us and even missed christmas with our child, not so much as even a card so I know exactly how you feel I saw him every where and begged for him to pay attention if not for me then for our daughter Natalie rose, I felt like a shell walking around without a spirit. He moved back in with us about a month ago and still things are so heavy and harsh it's almost like the man I fell in love with eight years ago has left his own body never to return again...
Starofdavid - my apologies just the same. i've read some things when in particular situations or moods that serve to amplify said mood or emotion, whether positive or negative, before. when its good its great. when its not so good, well, it usually makes me dwell on my negative mood more so. hang in there, just keep writing, i've always found that helps a tremendous amount.
Baby_Rose- thankyou for laughing, i was hoping that would be the reaction instead of annoyance. i was also watching the news and emailing someone at the same time. apparently i don't multi-task very well. thankyou for your comments. they are muchio appreciated. deep and corny hey? i like that combination. and it would be rather nice to find someone that i can be interested in and yet find something below the surface. i've found so many women in my arms and in my bed that are sure as hell gorgeous. but when a deeper look is taken i'm always disappointed. perhaps i'm being too picky. who knows. thankyou again.
Ali - thankyou, i'm glad you enjoyed it.
Violet - thankyou.
Well I'm at school right now, sick and rather tired. my next class starts pretty quick here so i must head out. i have an assingment due tomorrow that i haven't started yet and i have to work tonight so i won't be able to catch up on the works tonight. possibly tomorrow if not then the weekend. till then, ciao for now.
That Guy
hairdiva!! wowsers! congratulations and best wishes for blessings always!
Blessed 23 I know I'm such a dork lol I read the board like twenty times a day to see if anyone has posted anything new lol.But you are very welcome again and no thanks necessary,also I dont think you are being too picky I think you are being smart if you wait then you are bound to find your perfect soul mate who is everything to you, and I know you will because I can tell already just by what you write that you are what a lot of women are looking for, who wouldn't want to find a poet with deeper thoughts and intentions, so anyhow I know I'm long winded lol your welcome....
hair diva congrats and many many happy years to come.
I wish that their was one big room where we could all get together and just chat away...
Hi all, Thank you so much for all the lovely thoughts and comments. I’m doing great, just had a little moment there, with the Facebook piece :)
Violet,
The tea / coffee bit is so real, just giving up something that two people used to share together, the little rituals, is like letting go just a little more, and then it keeps happening...
Baby Rose,
I hope things improve fast for you and your daughter. I can't imagine what you must be going through.
Baby Rose, about Our song: ahhhhh.... so lovely a thought!
"Our earthly lullaby shall carry
within the mirrors of our daughters eyes,
through the babies that she carries,
and upon the oceans waves and mist coated sighs."
blessed23, about Tomorrow Was Two Years Ago: simply beautiful.
blessed23, about Scars Are Piling High:
"These women
(plastic that walks and breathes)"
wow, such a picture provoking couple of lines. and, it unearths some deep deep wounds. barbie figures/looks fade. unless you pay to keep them. time has a way of making real women curvier and oftentimes 'fluffier'. men to for that matter. i am glad you are the kind of man that looks beneath that surface while you are looking. some woman will be very lucky some day.
Ali, about Can't Help but Scream: i. love. this. !!!.