From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=268">Misti</a><BR>
Date: 15 July 2002<P>

Teej~<BR>
I was wonderin' where you went. Good to have ya back.<BR>
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Kevin~<BR>
Thank you, I never thought of my poems that way. It is a huge risk for me to read them to an audience...submitting them here is no longer a risk for me. At the open mic night at Insomnia last week a girl went up there and recited her poems from memory. I'm gonna try to start doing that. I'm going there this Wednesday. You should come by and see me in action and read your poems, too!<BR>
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Dee~<BR>
Yes! I think everyone should write a love letter to themselves. That would be an interesting "bump."<BR>
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Jon~<BR>
Thank you! That power poem is kind of laughable because I have no power whatsoever. I'm such a pawn/peon. But I have fun sometimes.<BR>
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okay...I'm going to walk off the Chef Boyardee pizza I just inhaled. Hasta, pasta.
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=872">cryingshame58</a><BR>
Date: 15 July 2002<P>

Hey! I have been reading this site and reading everyone's submissions and message board...they inspired me to write my own & today i submitted my first...i hope i can be apart of this group...hope everyone has a marvelous monday...
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=4">TJ Holland</a><BR>
Date: 15 July 2002<P>

OK, OK...my bad for not calling all the Californian Blenderites and crashing on their couch....next time, next time, next time....scqueen, I had no idea you had connections to Dionyses (I'm sure I spelled that wrong)and too, Jackrhyme is so damn sexy in his poems that I would be fearing for my virtue if I looked him up! <BR>
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Hi Misti ~ I forget, are you in California too? Somehow that doesn't sound right (?)<BR>
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Crying Shame ~ I read your two posts. They are very interesting. If you're writing about yourself and true events, then it sounds like you've been through some pretty crappy stuff. Writing does help get through it, doesn't it? <BR>
Welcome to the Blender!<BR>
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-Teej
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=22">angieubaldo</a><BR>
Date: 15 July 2002<P>

anybody heard of Norah Jones?  I just picked up her CD, come away with me, i bought it because I read that shes the daughter of Ravi Shankar...But its absolutely beautiful.  Good listening....
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=8">Ali</a><BR>
Date: 15 July 2002<P>

Nonitta~<BR>
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<a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2002.07.15.09.49.6487">HIM</a> was very good.  It rings all too true.  Great writing. *smile*<BR>
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Love and silent speaking, Ali
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=328">Rhetoric</a><BR>
Date: 15 July 2002<P>

How they hangin' troops?  I have always wanted to say that - don't know why.<BR>
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Belle de Jour - Thanks again for the praise.  I have been re-reading all my posts (under both usernames) and I count 9 pieces that I am actually proud of - the rest could have stayed in my little journal.  Not that I don't relish each comment or front page pick - I just wonder if I am saying what I think I am at times.  ;o)  Thanks for the email - and he DOES know how you feel.<BR>
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Misti - Man, sounds like times is tough all over in NM.  Best of luck to you both.  I hope these surges of emotion pass and you both land on the same patch of grass.  However, the subs are always adored and welcome.  I am proclaiming myself the member of your fan club that could turn into a stalker!<BR>
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hamlet loves ophelia - GREAT posts.  I must have missed the earlier ones, but I like your simplicity.  Why I don't write love poems was fabulously fantastic.<BR>
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*shushlove and angieubaldo - loved each of your newest additions.<BR>
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jack, teej, stephen, kev, violet, madi, and BK - I always look to you folks for a good read.<BR>
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Just Some Girl - where have you gone?  Hiding behind purple curtains, cozy blankets and more pillows than are humanly necessary will get you nowhere with me, sister!  Write me a little diddy to keep my spirits up.<BR>
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Have my big phone interview with someone from Johns Hopkins today - see if I am up to snuff, I guess.<BR>
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Wish me 20 coal trucks worth of luck,<BR>
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Jenny (as my mother would say)
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=34">Just Some Girl</a><BR>
Date: 15 July 2002<P>

Hey, Rhet!<BR>
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I tripped over a pillow and I can't get up!!!!  <BR>
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I'm here, silently watching all the mirth. 
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=8">Ali</a><BR>
Date: 15 July 2002<P>

Angie~<BR>
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I have that c.d. Doesn't she have an awesome voice! Good recommendation! :)<BR>
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Love and silent speaking, Ali
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=835">Liz</a><BR>
Date: 15 July 2002<P>

Misti and Chris...divorce, or the possibility of it, is one of the most painful, disillusioning things I have ever been through.  I hope things work out for both of you, together or apart.  I feel guilty for being so exhilarated by your writings, knowing the painful place it is coming from.<BR>
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Ali <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2002.07.15.08.14.21395">Muddled and Vast</a>  captures both sides nicely, I think.<BR>
jackrhyme <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2002.07.15.02.49.5561">some would say love is...</a>  is great, a lot of fun! <BR>

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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=8">Ali</a><BR>
Date: 15 July 2002<P>

spaceman~<BR>
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<a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2002.07.15.15.16.6407">Possibility</a> and <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2002.07.15.15.16.6407">Possibility</a> are wonderful.  Damn, they're good.  *smile* Exquisite writing. :)<BR>
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Love and silent speaking, Ali
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=8">Ali</a><BR>
Date: 15 July 2002<P>

Spaceman~<BR>
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Arg. Dammit. One of those links was supposed to be <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2002.07.15.14.50.18896">One Stolen Kiss</a>. *shakes head* I goofed. Ah well...<BR>
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Love and silent speaking, Ali
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=205">Violet</a><BR>
Date: 15 July 2002<P>

Spaceman~ <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2002.07.15.15.16.6407">Possibility</a>... Yummy. ;-)
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=17">deevaa</a><BR>
Date: 15 July 2002<P>

Chris, I found when I was able to talk about divorce in a calm and controlled manner I was totally ready for one, until such time I was still desperate to try, no matter how broken the whole marriage seemed.<BR>
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take care of your heart,<BR>
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dee
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=671">shushlove</a><BR>
Date: 15 July 2002<P>

ah...thanks rhetoric, I haven't been here for ages and there's nothing like a tiny word of appreciation to convince me to start posting again!
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=5">jackryhme</a><BR>
Date: 15 July 2002<P>

ah Teej your virtue would be safe... i got a cedar box with silk and satin lining  to lock it away in till you leave k?<BR>
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thank you Rhetoric (jenny) your presence of late has ben missed my lady<BR>
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and thank you Liz ... lol it is isnt it<BR>
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jack<BR>

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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=10">Galadrial</a><BR>
Date: 15 July 2002<P>

I don't often do this...but I was reading the latest blender question---and it just sort of hit me---we are all TRULY screwed up beings when it comes to love. (No offense anyone---but SHEESH!)<BR>
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We don't count a love as having value unless it is forever...death do us part---and for some, EVEN that isn't quite good enough. We have to hunt for soul mates---someone we danced with in a PREVIOUS LIFE...as if it isn't pretty damned special that we made it through ONE?<BR>
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People? LOVE isn't ever a waste. We treat it like an emotional IRA---we want it to YIELD BIG, dammit.I cringe when I hear someone say that they weren't "really in love" until they met "the one". Ladies? Gentlemen? Isn't all that regret about anger maybe? Yes, goodbye is the pits---but love is love. It really doesn't promise us a thing---we do that.<BR>
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I wonder if some day we'll be able to distinguish between "the real thing", and the "unreal" ones---without regret or tears? That was the worst part---when mine started to come undone---it was like watching a sweater unravel. I was SO ANGRY that we weren't going to have forever...but you know---I was BLESSED. I had TEN YEARS of pretty damned terrific...so who am I to kick if I don't get the lifetime deal?
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=268">Misti</a><BR>
Date: 15 July 2002<P>

Teej~<BR>
In California? I wish! No, I'm in Albuquerque.<BR>
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Liz~<BR>
Thank you for your concern. I appreciate it.<BR>
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Rhet~<BR>
The word "stalker" struck a raw nerve because I feel like I was a stalker recently. Pretty damn humiliating. You can be the president of my fan club. I can make some t-shirts that have a picture of me on the front and this Gertrude Stein quote on the back:<BR>
"There ain't no answer. There ain't gonna be an answer. There never has been an answer. That's the answer."<BR>
This Zyprexa is makin' me more goofy than usual.
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=268">Misti</a><BR>
Date: 15 July 2002<P>

Gala~<BR>
I see your point. Reminds me of this quote from Carrie Fisher's *Surrender The Pink*:"It's never really over. It's just over there."<BR>
Also, that verse in the Bible that talks about casting bread upon the water. I wrote this poem about it once:<BR>
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You gotta keep on casting that bread upon the waves<BR>
Love sho don't keep<BR>
But, oh, love saves.<BR>
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The only time love is a waste is when it's unrequited. You get no benefits or growth from that kind of love. Pretty fuckin' useless.
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