From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=8">Ali</a><BR>
Date: 24 September 2002<P>

whisper~<BR>
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I'm going to assume your question is directed toward everyone, and answer it.  I post at the Blender because I want to share my writing, my thoughts, my emotions with people.  This is a place where I can go to express myself without any hesistation.  It is a haven to me, if you will.  I have made a few friends here, and I have gotten to know many amazing people--that's a pretty awesome thing.  <BR>
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All of us here at the Blender have things in common.  At the very least, we all love to write.  But the amazing thing is that we all bring our own views, our own unique styles to this place.  Two people can write a poem on the same subject, and yet the resulting poems can be radically different because the people are different (everybody sees things different), and that is something that I love.  I have learned so much about writing from everybody here.  There is always a lesson to be found though, whether it be about writing, love, or life.  That is a blessing.<BR>
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And lastly, I post to the Blender because it's theraputic.  I don't post to get responses (though I love to get them)--I post my work to get emotions out, to get things off my chest.  Also though, I think I've become addicted to this place.  lol.  I come here every single morning.  Blender's Anonymous anyone?  *grin*<BR>
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Anyway, I hope that answers your question...:)<BR>
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Love and silken starlight, Ali
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=706">splatipus</a><BR>
Date: 24 September 2002<P>

I was a unicorn too! Cool
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=900">RennieLorca</a><BR>
Date: 24 September 2002<P>

Jenilee~~ some thoughts here .... <BR>
on why I write and share, whisper~~<BR>
Misti~~ congrats on finding a husband you really love.<BR>
the southern Blenderites~~ on maybe finding a time to meet and share some laugh together<BR>
leamas~~ on finding peace within<BR>
jimmyallgrownup / IS ~~ thanks for the energy you add to Blender life here<BR>
kirk~~ on anything involving love and romance<BR>
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Jenilee: Thanks on the Lost Soulmate comment. I wrote that as one flowing stream of thought reflecting on that last day (hence the typos and needed edits) we had together. I had written all the way around it for others: filling out forms, telling friends, family, customers and clients in just hitting the basic highlights and facts (not feelings). I had just not addressed this head-on for myself in writing. <BR>
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We were very, very close. Others called us "soulmates" ... but I have someone in my life I am even closer to now. Life is still just as difficult as before, but I have peace because I feel loved and can return it -- willingly and easily. I don't have to play the 24/7 romantic. I catch myself doing something that might be considered "romantic" and then realizing later I set a stage or a mood running on automatic with my heart instead of trying to ensnare with my mind. <BR>
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I want to remember the good parts of my husband, and forgive the problems. I would hope that he did the same with me had he survived me instead. His best gift to me was in leaving me with the ability to still love and be a person who could be loved.  <BR>
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I am dealing with difficult life and death issues of health (cancer - negligent medical care nearly killing me), major moves, tornadoes tearing up much of the last of what I had left of a former life -- yet, I am so very happy. Real life, and just as raw as it gets, but I am happy. I still explore feelings, revisit old feelings, enjoy the what-ifs of writing. Understanding and the desire to understand each other has reached new levels. I don't expect perfection when I am far from it. I don't want someone to change for me. Want honest, true, warts and all. <BR>
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There are actually lots of folks we can be happy with in life. A few of them can make our time bliss. Hell is feeling the need to change someone, and them also wanting you to change. Remember the saying that: One Lighthouse seldom sees another. Keep that light shining and someone will find you. I find what helps me most is in being happy with myself. I just don't care to be alone. <BR>
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There is serenity and tranquility in listening to a cricket chirp, a bird sing, the waves wash in, a sunset, sunrise, the smell of coffee or tea brewing, good food on the table, a pup to pet, and more. Helps to write a poem to each of these sometimes when you feel love not working or out of reach. What makes these nice things close to perfect is being able to share them. When not able to share, enjoying the fact that I am still alive to experience them and fix things up around me so that sharing will be memorable when I am able. Bertold Brecht said, "What happens to the hole when the cheese is gone." This "hole" fills her senses and mind like a vessel to be something for that someone who comes along wanting a great companion-partner-lover. Soul mate / sock mate -- we fit. Smile from the inside out. It is hard for anyone to toss a smiling lover. It works like a magnet for most folks. Thanks for the comment, Jenilee. I wish you happiness and real love in life -- You and everyone at Blender. May you find a time when you only write of the miseries of life with humor or in reflection. Okay, gotta get busy, but for what it's worth, I care for all of ya good folks here ..... Rennie
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=4">tj holland</a><BR>
Date: 24 September 2002<P>

Whisper ~ <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2002.09.23.22.53.24233">a day with no tomarrow</a> is a very expressive piece of writing. I have always liked to read a piece that can express conflicting emotions/situations. Yours did that.<BR>
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-Teej
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=925">whisper</a><BR>
Date: 24 September 2002<P>

thank you all for your answers, i look forward to reading more responses. <BR>
i have taken a job on the road as of late so i will be unable to post as frequently as i have previously, but i will make it to this site as often as i can. <BR>
in the short time that i have been visiting the blender i have grown fond of all of you. there is a kinship in unabashedly bearing your soul to people. i suppose thats why i post. <BR>
by the way the content of "a day with no tomarrow" is fictional, but it is a look into the possible, probable future. love has dealt me a cruel hand, but i will play it the best i can<BR>
thanks to everyone for your comments on my work<BR>
farewell for now.<BR>
whisper
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=13">B.K.</a><BR>
Date: 24 September 2002<P>

Whisper; Just take your laptop and keep up! We will be looking forward to more posts where-ever you are.<BR>
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Why do I post here. Well he started writing me exquisite erotica and I wanted to write back,in my own way,so i went looking for inspiration. I somehow stumbled in here and found just what I was looking for and just like you got addicted to the place and now have to have my blender fix on a daily basis or turn blue and die..ha<BR>
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bk
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=835">Liz</a><BR>
Date: 24 September 2002<P>

whisper, you can add my praise to the rest for <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2002.09.23.22.53.24233">a day with no tomarrow</a>  as I have said before and will say again, you are VERY talented.  For most of poetry comes from a painful place, and poems like these are the jewels that come from that abyss.<BR>
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TJ Holland I like <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2002.09.23.22.08.10921">Halcyon</a>  , simple, compact, perfect.<BR>
rhetoric Good job on <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2002.09.22.19.56.18975">Willing Participant</a>   especially "in my land of favors- you owe me big"  <BR>
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RainbowChaser <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2002.09.22.10.18.19086">OCD</a>  I've lived in that hell too...you described it to a T. <BR>
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Misti I liked all your recent posts, but I liked <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2002.09.20.21.50.2960">Shattered</a>  the best...you paint a clear picture wIth words. <BR>

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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=902">spaded</a><BR>
Date: 24 September 2002<P>

whisper- I thought a day with no tomorrow was sad and depressing, i mean that in the best way though, I think that is the feeling you meant to come through.It was a good piece of writing.<BR>
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I post here because it gives me a place to share my writing, and because I enjoy reading others pieces. I like when people write to say they have enjoyed a piece of my work, and I like to comment on the ones that touch me on some level. I like the feeling of community that love blender creates.
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=801">Bridget O</a><BR>
Date: 24 September 2002<P>

Whisper~ "a day with no tomarrow" was great. i loved it. it felt really real, it reminded me of a lot of things so thank you
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=650">J-Dub</a><BR>
Date: 24 September 2002<P>

I was just wondering if anyone out there in Blenderville has seen the movie,  "The Tao of Steve"  I was just wondering because my girfriend had me watch and some of theings in that movie I do and have donewithout even knowing that this movie was even out there.  LIke I siad just wondering if anyone out there had seen it before.
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=650">J-Dub</a><BR>
Date: 24 September 2002<P>

I was just wondering if anyone out there in Blenderville<BR>
has seen a movie called "The Tao of Steve"  If you've seen it you know what I'm talking about when I say that I've really been feeling like a Stu latly.  It's wierd how the 1st time I saw that movie I realized that I do alot of the things in that movie.  Anyone seen it?
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=918">Jenilee</a><BR>
Date: 24 September 2002<P>

Hey guys...I am trying to read some of these posts and I keep getting "Internal Server Error" on my screen on alot of the ones I click on....whats up with that?<BR>
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-Jenilee-<BR>
p.s.it still happens as I am trying to send this message.<BR>
&lt;sheesh&gt;
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