Hi all -
Its gone. My word muse has completely left me. Three nights ago I was assaulted - the victim of road rage. Some freak attempted to throw me into traffic, then when i got in my car he tried pulling me through the window. Between all this, trying to punch me and threatening to kill me, I'm a wreck. Never before in my life have I actually thought I was going to die. I find it difficult to leave my house without having a panic attack, I haven't been near my car since and my ability to write (what little i had) has vanished. One bright thing to come out of all this is that I've found painting to help me. Nothing special, and it'll probably go straight into a cupboard, but its helped immensely. I guess the moral here is when one door closes another door opens.
I've also realised how important my loved ones are to me. All I ask is that you all hug those special to you and tell them what they mean to you. One day you won't get the opportunity and I wouldn't want anyone to be left wondering.
Wishing you all the stars above in love and friendship,
~empy~
empy~ please take care of yourself ... vent here if it helps ... the advice is wonderful from one who has been there and done that whether it is something good or bad, we all learn from it. Both you and Kase have recently had bad experiences, so I hope both of you have better days to come. I'm cleaning up after a tornado, and just glad to still be in one piece. Seems most everything goes down to bare earth at times, and leaving just the ones who love you, if you live long enough. I am grateful for these experiences when I look back, even when they had me horrified or furious at the time they happened. So many people are on edge, so Blender is a place of some refuge. I've got the words now, but not the desire to paint like I used to have. Paint on! See what dee's done with her great painting ability ..... Rennie
Empy ~ I am so sorry to hear of your short coming...there is nothing worse than being violated...and the violation of your sanity is the worse type of abuse...I pray that you soon recover...
Rennie ~ I am sorry to hear of your loss as well...yes it is strange that when you lose material items you realize what is really important...the ones that you love and love you...I wish you a speedy recovery as well...
Kase ~ I pray that you too are doing better...
I will keep you all in my prayers
butterfly ~ thank you for the bump...you write very well...keep up the good work....
Ladyinwaiting,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU…
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU…
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR KA---TH--EY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU…
CS58/Pam
Ladyinwaiting~ Happy Birthday... congrats on the beginning on a new great year!!! I just know it's going to be great and hopefully everything you expect it to be! ;}
Empy~ I am new and don't know you but I am deeply sorrowed by your attack. May you be watched over and protected from this day forth. It is uncomprehendable how some monster can take a person and try to bring them to their level. Please keep your head up and rise above this.
Aparajita~ Thank you very much.
I ask prayers for a special young man...the son of the detective is gravely ill...life threatening...I ask that you hold him up in prayer...those of us who believe know what prayer can do...thank you
Kindred spirit ~ I have just read through your account once again...you write with such beauty, sadness and pain, love and laughter...toying with my emotions you reach in and take my heart into the palm of your hand...thank you
Cyingshame and Butterfly ~ thank you for the birthday wishes...it has been a peaceful day...
ladyinwaiting: I loved "Bandaid" and Happy Birthday!!
Dana,
Your submissions today were a lovely tribute to your hubby...I bet he is proud of you, too...
Jim,
Your Leaning Over the Edge reminds me of butterflies and tingles ... the kind you feel when you are excited and scared! I ride in an elevator nearly every work day...Elevator Music...I look everyone/anyone in the eye when I sing to them on the elevator...not really, just the cute guys...
CS58/Pam
ladyinwaiting~~ WOW. You wrote such an awesome compliment! I had to look twice to make sure it was really addressed to me. ;-) Thank You! Your comments are deeply appreciated.
Gary
Pam,
Caution-Wary Sparks Call the hook and ladder, there's a real fire goin on. Very good. I loved your other two as well. About time you wrote tem.
Jim
ladyinwaiting~ A very Happy Birthday to you! And, an appreciation for your thoughfulness in giving to others on this day you should receive gifts. Your postings and thoughtful requests today are your gifts to us. Thanks! ..... Rennie
Aparajita- Thanx, i understand u and other ppl care ana all, and me and my sis get along very well!!!I knwo that ppl would liek to help me w/ my problems, but i would sooo much liek to learn my own mistakes! i mean i understand that some of them i dont need to learn by myslef! but i would like to try and just live my own life!! i dont knwo if u get that or not! but thanx for helping!
Butterfly03- Yea i knwo about counslers and all that! but i dont wanna talk to them! i need to get through this stuff on my own!But i will check that site out though!! well thanx!!
Kase- I am happy to be jessica, for the most point n e way, but i just wanted to write my feelings w/o my sis and her stupid boy friend(who i do NOT get a long w/) all up in my buissness! and for the most part, what u wrote was right! but u need to understand that i am not just a lil child who think her probs are all big! i mean i dont! but i know ppl from the grades 4-10 and i have more bigger probs than all of them with and exception of my sister!!i mean i knwo i seem so young but im acually alot more mature about mostly everything that u would expect! and about the sex stuff in the poems...well to understand that u would acually have to see the ppl i hang w/!! and im not alan or n e one else!! all i am is jessica-ligsil-ful!! thats it! loland no my parents are not divorced! although i wish they wernt my parents, there not divorced! thay just have really screwd daughters!! Well i dont try to act grown...but around here and the ppl hang w/.. i have to be grown!and yea there was some conflict between me and my sis and a guy...but that is all over, it was just me being a jack ass!!!and carol....well she is kinda mental!! (sorry but it is kinda true!lol) and i am sorry bout ur sons dad!!well i guess tahts wall i have to say! but thanx for what u wrote!! most of it was correct!!!
peace!!
jessica!!/ful!!/ligsil!!!
cryingshame58~~ a quote about love This quote, is absolutely true. Love has the grip of heroin!
Pam: thanks!! I actually emailed it to him at work and he loved it. Dana
Kindred_Spirit49: The Scrap Book was beautiful!!
Kindred_Spirit49~The Scrap Book, a super piece of writing,,,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU LADY!!!! :)
empy... i am really sorry for the tragedy you have gone through. as a victim of rape when i was a little girl i understand the violation... talk, talk, talk to someone you can trust and get it out as soon as possible. i am sending you big hugs of comfort.
rennie... i guess i did not realize the tornado actually got up close and personal to you. i am sorry. my best friend had her home destroyed and her husband almost killed in the one jan 99 that ripped through AR. and, we are personal friends of the paramedic who lost her son in the same tornado. i now have much greater respect for these beasts. i hope you are recovering well.
lady... i am praying for the detective's son even as we speak. please let me know what happens.
Empy,
I, too, am sorry to hear of your misfortune...I hope you soon find some inspiration in your world.
Rennie,
I am complimented by your comment that I remind you of a kind friend from your past! Also I am glad you liked Ping Bong...I am enjoying writing more each time I write...Glad you & Captain are safe and your little dog, too!
Jim,
Thanks for sending me a little inspiration...
Kindred_Spirit,
I also liked Scrap Book and especially like the way you ended it with US...and I appreciate your comment on my quote...sometimes can be good medicine, too...
BK,
I always enjoy every submit especially your most recent...simply tantalizing!
Dana,
Hope you got a sweet reaction from your hubby...keep on smiling....
Kase,
Hope you are feeling better, too...
CS58
rthoseflipflops ~ Wow. I'm assuming you guys are young (what with the mention of 5th period and all) but Justin has an incrdible thought process if he actually wrote this! from justin. Very GOOD!
-Teej
bp ~ Thanks, Bud, for your comment on "I Will Enter"
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Pam: is it there yet?
Lady,
happy (almost belated, but it's still the 14th in my time zone) birthday
oh, and since the latest survey question doesn't seem to have any takers, emailme a question YOU would like to see!
Thanks!