From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=268">Misti</a><BR>
Date: 14 August 2003<P>

p.s. just submitted a poem and noticed (too late) that i misspelled "television" but that's okay <BR>
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and jack, this places loves you!!!<BR>
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=222">poyen_fpy</a><BR>
Date: 14 August 2003<P>

hey, bumped into this. nice read, when you're trying to get over the pain of a failed relationship..<BR>
<a href="http://www.creatavision.com/articles/stuckinpain.htm">http://www.creatavision.com/articles/stuckinpain.htm</a>
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=900">RennieLorca</a><BR>
Date: 14 August 2003<P>

Misti~ I took some losses in the early 70's, one was a child. Then I made a long trip out to Grand Canyon, Sedona, your area and Arizona. I really had the ability to unwind out there that I don't get with responsibility here. Made the trip really memorable. I'll try to put that on my landlubbing trips as we travel again. I think this is why these two pieces really hit some deep feeling with me over Leo and Trader's Wife. I'd love to see you write more about this. You have a great way of putting the abstract mythical into terms and lines that paint a better picture than many I've read over the years. It's a little genius going on in you that I hope you cultivate ..... Rennie
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=900">RennieLorca</a><BR>
Date: 14 August 2003<P>

By a friend who knew him, I just received word that the controversial New Jersey poet laureate was murdered. She said she saw it on a NY news flash just a short time ago (around 5:30 AM EST). I haven't found it on any of the public news feeds so far. As you said, sush -- "poetry IS..." where politics is concerned ..... Rennie
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=900">RennieLorca</a><BR>
Date: 14 August 2003<P>

finally found it in print ... was his youngest daughter .. media news feed was wrong .. print story: <a href="http://www.c-n.com/news/c-n/story/0,2111,787948,00.html">http://www.c-n.com/news/c-n/story/0,2111,787948,00.html</a>
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=1315">growingpaynes</a><BR>
Date: 14 August 2003<P>

Okay, I will ignore my human tendencies to join in the on going plethora of self-gratifying idiopathic (look it up) ramblings here.  Which, by the way, have nothing to do with love or poetry.  Why is it that you go to a board that is supposed to be intelligent discussion of one thing just to find a handful of lifeless people who want to do nothing more than pick each other to pieces?  Why don’t all of you who insist on using this board to air your critical opinions of each other go somewhere else?  Somewhere like www.trivial_arguments.com or www.mindless_agitators.com or better yet www.get_a_freaking_life.com.  I’m not try to jump on their wagon and don’t want to be included in this waste of time and board space, but I would like to come here and actually talk about love and poetry.  I submitted a poem and just wanted a few comments on it.  Of course I got no reply because everyone is too busy comparing viciousness and assumed I.Q scores.  Come on people, take your Paxil or Prozac, or whatever you’re on this week, grab a cup of coffee and try to be nice. Oh yea focus, focus, focus today’s discussion is on LOVE AND POETRY.<BR>
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Peace out<BR>
Kimberley (not afraid to ues my real name)Payne<BR>

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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=1315">growingpaynes</a><BR>
Date: 14 August 2003<P>

Oops spelled a word wrong - Please don't crucify me<BR>
Kimberley<BR>

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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=1189">Darwin</a><BR>
Date: 14 August 2003<P>

So Kimberly (growing) Paynes;<BR>
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One of the easiest things to do right now, instead of coming here to a place where you assume the verbage has nothing to do with love or poetry. In the morning, wake up, perhaps put your feet into some slippers, climb down that dark hallway, flash on your bathroom light, take your morning piss.  Then after that, go to your kitchen table, sit down, perhaps pour yourself a bowl of kix, since it's kid tested and mother approved, then place the box of kix in front of you and stare at it aimlessly.  Maybe grab an archie comic to wyle away the spoonfulls as they pass into your mouth, and maybe there, you will find the peace and serenity that your paxil and prozac obviously aren't giving you.  
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=1139">jwb71913</a><BR>
Date: 14 August 2003<P>

May I be Barabas to Kimberley's Christ?
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=1315">growingpaynes</a><BR>
Date: 14 August 2003<P>

Thanks guys.  Sorry I got sucked into the under currents for a second….just get tired of having to read through all the trash to get to the real discussion here.  I like this site though, beautiful writings about life and love.  I haven’t written anything in a while and reading some of the work here has been very inspiring.  What a gift to be able to take your feelings and put them in words to share with others.  My writing is still developing at age 38.  I’ve been writing since I was about 12, I may not always follow perfect form but I pour my heart and soul into each piece I write.  I like poems that rhyme because they tickle my musical side, but poems or prose, essays or epitaph, it’s all good.  I wrote “Teenage Love” 2003.08.07.08.31.6103<BR>
the other day after watching my 15 year old daughter with her new boyfriend.  I’d love to know if there are other parents who understand what I’m seeing my child growing through.  I’m a mother of 7 wonderful children so a lot of my writing now is about them.  Guess that goes with the territory.  I love being a mother, wouldn’t trade this hand of cards for anything.  Oh yea, this month I’m on Lexapro, Prozac and Paxil were last year.  It helps take the edge off but most of my peace and serenity comes from God.  <BR>
Take care all and keep on writing!!!<BR>
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Kimberley Payne<BR>

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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=23">Kirk</a><BR>
Date: 14 August 2003<P>

Misti,<BR>
I'm only soso on Miller.  I find him very difficult to read, actually, so I think I've just read Tropic of Cancer twice.  (one day in high school band, trumpet player Ellen, who was reading this book on advice of her uncle, showed us one of the naughty bits, and we could always make her squirm just by saying "squish squish" at random times...)<BR>
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I think I still have this last-page essay from Time magazine about him, "The American Optimist", where I first encountered the beauty of the idea "french spoke with a brooklyn accent".<BR>
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In terms of Nin, I read a collection of her short stuff a long time ago, didn't make too much of an impression except one artist telling his model how her nipples were terrificly pink, all the other models had to rouge theirs.<BR>
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I read the excerpts of her diary that were released w/ the movie Henry and June; I really liked those. It's one of my all time favorite movies, actually, passionate and interesting.  It's too bad so few movies followed in its footsteps of using the NC17 rating as a way of establishing "adult entertainment", in more than one sense of that phrase.
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=1321">Neverynuff</a><BR>
Date: 14 August 2003<P>

Thanks for the praise, jwb71913.  It was based on a not-quite-true story, a blend of experiences with the two women who have had the greatest effect on me, romantically speaking.  Just felt like writing at about 3AM one evening, and ended up with that.<BR>
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By the way, this happens to be my first post to the Blender board.  I've read and enjoyed many poems here for a couple of years already, and finally decided to put up some relevant pieces of mine.  If I think of anything else to submit, it'll be here.  Thanks for the opportunity. 
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=1321">Neverynuff</a><BR>
Date: 14 August 2003<P>

By the way, I haven't been keeping up with the work of most of the site's "veterans" for some time, and now that I have seen some of the newest writing, I have to say-<BR>
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Damn, Misti?!  When did you become such a phenomenal writer?  :P  I recall reading bits a couple of years ago that, frankly, I didn't find very remarkable.  Maybe I missed out, not carefully reading through every poem.  But <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2003.08.14.00.23.9026">whiFF</a> is indeed remarkable.  I can't think of a good way to describe how impressed I am; of course, I can't identify directly with the experience, but I certainly can empathize with the experience of realizing one's own worthiness, in my own life and seeing others I was close to who needed it.  Powerfully honest, brilliantly written, that's what I was trying to say.
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=4">tj holland</a><BR>
Date: 14 August 2003<P>

Darwin ~ <a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2003.08.14.06.24.27700">in the light</a> was exceptionally enlightened. The acuity in your writing was inspiring. I read it and felt myself change. And wishing to posess what you wrote. Wishing for it to be mine. :-) Well done. 
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=863">Champagne</a><BR>
Date: 14 August 2003<P>

In reply to Rennie Lorca -<BR>
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Thanks -<BR>
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I like to make people smile or laugh.<BR>
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Glad you got a chuckle out of it.<BR>
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I do love quotes -<BR>
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when they are short and witty and you can read between the lines.
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=872">cryingshame58</a><BR>
Date: 14 August 2003<P>

Liz,<BR>
<a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2003.08.14.09.24.1258">Insecurity Blanket</a> ...i know exactly what you mean, jelly bean...but been trying to escape it for over 25 years...good luck to me...<BR>
CS58
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=220">wolfscreamer</a><BR>
Date: 14 August 2003<P>

ladyinwaiting......<a href="/blend/wv.cgi?id=2003.08.07.07.58.987">Passages of Time</a>.....Exquisite
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=1189">darwin</a><BR>
Date: 14 August 2003<P>

Thanks Teej<BR>
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I have a hard time writing things as of late, that don't somehow possess me.  Fantasy once was able to take me over, but now it's more this reality based trickery life likes to play, and I'm just trying to go with it!<BR>
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But reading your comment, definately made me smile, and realize I wasn't just passing time....<BR>
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Thanks you again!<BR>
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darwin
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=487">bp</a><BR>
Date: 14 August 2003<P>

~Darwin once again I checked on what TJ seems to like and I'm glad I did, "in the light," was very impressive, good work. But Teej. I'm not stalking you, I do like to check on what moves others also. "a path once beaten is twice as easy for others."
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=1103">ladyinwaiting</a><BR>
Date: 14 August 2003<P>

wolfscreamer ~ thank you...you are always so kind and complimentary...and i love your latest...so glad fall is close...tis my favorite season...
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From: <a href="/blend/av.cgi?id=2">scqueen</a><BR>
Date: 14 August 2003<P>

Misti ~ It's awesome to hear you so upbeat. And thank you for loving me, because you must know I idolize you, er Clara Bow, ya know, doll.<BR>
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I do have an admission...I have kept a list of random lines from your poems for the last couple of years, that I am going to use to inspire an art journal. If it turns out well, it's yours. You will never have any idea how much strength I drew from you in the 6 months that I was unemployed. That was a very dark place, but your introduction to collaging, your generosity, your surprises, your ideas of a low budget lifestlye - all of it, I gleaned from. Everyday, I smile at the collage you made that says 'hang on to your spirit'. I guess I really did.<BR>
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You're an inspirer, a survivor, a raw up and downer. <BR>
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You make it okay to be human.<BR>
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So thank you.<BR>

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