BK
You go girl! No matter how hard I try I will never sound right saying or even attempting to type that phrase lol. But I loved "A Womans Worth." And the song from Alcia Keys (she is so beautiful) at the end made it all the better. Great writing.
One more try...
You go girl!
Okay I'll stop. :-)
Take care and all that good stuff.
-Jon
Mark My Words
Gosh, thanks for going to all the trouble of writing a piece for little old me! Imagine that? Is "Lemac" a nifty alter ego of another Blenderhead? The disembodied poetic TJ Holland wrote a piece above on the Board that is either accusing ME of being lemac or god knows what. I am only aware of one umbilical cord that I could be connected to, so what is the deal? Are you saying my mother is a whore? This may be one of those moments that are better suited to a personal phone call or something (after all, I'm in the book), rather than calling my mother a whore on the internet. See what troubles disembodied poetics cause when they use art to deliver dissonant dissing? Well, I can vouch for my poor old ma and say that I've known a few whores in my day and my mother is no whore.
Having said that, let's talk about whores for a moment, shall we? First off, dear readers, don't get plugged in...I've known far more male whores than female, so my comments are directed to a broad non-discriminatory roster of men and women. One hallmark of whores seems to be that people are seldom JUST a whore. One immediately thinks of the "whore with a heart of gold" we seen so often in the movies, or the family man who needs to get drunk in order to BE somebody...you know, the nice fella witha good job and handsome family, the same guy that can't keep his peepee in his pants in a small town. Drunk and disorderly treatment of committed hearts. People with no values, only immediate gratification in a world where nothing is special.
But you REALLY don't want to get me started on THAT now, do you?
So lemac or lemur or loser or whatever, thank you so much for your kind words. What a talent! As for me, a few more posts and I'll be done.
Some whores like to call their dysfunction "debauchery," but we all know that is just another word for "nothing left to lose." A whore is seldom "just a whore," but so much more. Usually an angry bitter bee-otch.
Golly, thanks Teej!
"Oh me, oh my!
I lost myself and I'm not sure why.
There's a cameL got a hump or two.
Are you he, or is he you?
He's just arrived here recently
You've been here a while, I can see.
Are you maybe more than THREE?
A bright misfit in society.
A question, a query, an answer back,
So many you's it's hard to keep track.
It's fine to play if just for a lark
When I shoot will I hit the Mark?
Go on and have a bit o' fun
Call me up, we can down together a shot o' rum."
I AM NOT WHAT I WAS YESTERDAY AND TOMORROW I WILL NOT BE WHO I AM TODAY
Well whoever this Lemac is, the man can write...
(even if he does have a thing about whores!)
Yes, McNabb, I figured you were at least Lemac and Bacardi. I didn't care if you were. My cheesy rhyme was done in aboout 97 seconds... I figured someone would make some sense of it and comment. I think everyone is entitled to be whom/what they wish. Personally, I think you're very interesting. Dramatic, yes, but interesting. Here's hoping your issues get resolved. One way or another. Peace to you!
-Teej
Voice Broken
Welcome to the blender, I love your latest pieces espcially Triangle. You can tell they were written with such conviction and emotion...nicely written. Hope to see more from you.
Sorry Kirk for double posting, I should save my comments for one really big comment heh...but the poetry here is just too good.
Violet
Waiting for you was very touching. I think we might have all been there at one time or another.
CAgirl
Near Miss was great. So, did you ever end up talking to that guy? Hope to see more from you.
faithful
Pick me up Buttercup was cute. I loved it and I saved it if you don't mind.
kevin
no compromise was nicely written. I read it over and over again.
Take care and all that good stuff
-Jon
Twinkle~ Thanks! Somehow I knew reading of palm trees and smog that we're neighbors.
B.K.~ I loved A Woman's Worth - and the more I read it the more I like it! Especially 'Whose word is strong/Standing stainless steel/Against worldly storms'.
Jon~ Thanks for the encouragement. I've always been a reader, never a writer. And now that I've started, nothing seems to stop the flood of words! So don't worry - you'll see more. The only questions is, will it be too much?
Thank's Jon. :-)
TJ Holland - How disappointing! You should do better homework before you go attacking some anonymous dude on the internet. Thanks for your wishes..if I ever have any serious "issues" to sort out, you can bet your sweet boopie that I will. You'd think that when a person on this dastardly roller coaster of a website chooses to post only under their real name that might be some indicator of a commitment to be real and not f*ck with people under assumed "rhetorical" names. But thanks for another grand supposition by a fellow faceless forlorn disembodied poetic. I forget that the worst damage done via this site is all the mischevious (ouch! SP?) fabricated personality emails that get circulated by enfatuated readers off site...your biggest mistake is to be so swayed and smitten by words from the foolhardy and frustrated that you would actually even CARE at all. And I thought YOUR Board post was some hint to go a looking (cameL = Lemac)...and YOU even missed "lemac's" Survey Question answer...which was clearly some spoof or commentary on MINE (which also reveals lemac to be a lady, er well you know). At any rate, you'll find the majority of my post's to be an effort to contribute here...but the whole thing is just too damn pointless now.
So "lemac" or "rhetoric" or "just some girl" wants me to admit my LOVE for "her" but it sadly died long LONG ago. Check that - "happily" died long ago, given the world I live in NOW. So, all in all, seems a good time to ditch this two-bit dive and move on.
Final bit of advice - most of you should be copyrighting your works and NOT wasting them for free on the internet. If I could afford it, Kirk...I'd buy this site and shut it down. And sweet little Misti, stop "sharing" your screenplays via the internet. You do not own those words now, and some sly-er, hungrier Hollywood wannabee is probably already pitching YOUR words to some mogul as if they were his/her own. Really. Take more care with your words...they are ultimately all that you are, if you are a writer.
But then most of the writers here are just exhibitionists with an AOL account, right?
Ok, after fianlly figuring out what I think is going on with the whole "Lemac" postings, I have to say I'm really disappointed to see someone using the site to sling mud at a former partner/romantic interest. That's pretty low, and the Survey Question answer posted was indeed a very thinly disguised verbal smack.
Mark~~
While you certainly have every reason to feel now is the time to move on, I hope you don't - yours is some of the best work to appear on here, and honest & up front people should not be the ones that have to sacrifice or back down in a situation.
Remind me to keep my knowledge of this site a happy secret from any partners, past present or future. Too messy.
Hi Kendra...
...thanks for the comment. It gets worse than that. My former lust interest made the mistake of sharing it with another of her entanglements, so now I get all manner of postings from "just some girl" and her gal pal "Rhet"...and I had to get Kirk to delete a bunch of crap a week or so ago that was attempting to attack me or direct people via this website to my place of employment or whatever. Originally, I had shared the "Poems & Sonnets" page with my ex...because the choices are all (mostly) so damn good...sort of a romatic e-link to share with a lover, that ultimately gets used to torment me after the fall. Little did she know (or maybe she DID know) that I love visiting here to read, now her entanglements (which are palpable and innumerable) sort of metasticize into cheapening what could otherwise be a great powerful website.
Too bad, I'll miss a lot of y'all save but for one...and if she was a bet, I wouldn't take her.
Bye.
I have decided to amend my previous statement (and I've been double posting a lot I know, sorry!!)...
I think it would be really interesting to share this site with someone I love, and I'm certainly not an advocate for the idea of only one half of a poetically-gifted couple posting on here in order to avoid messiness - that would be a big loss.
But with romance, as I know all too well, comes a lot of mind games, conscious and unconscious. No matter how intune a person is with their emotions, they can still fall prey to the occasional manipulation, even a well-meaning one, and this place should be somewhere where everyone strives to avoid that. Pour you heart out, share it with everyone here, and if that includes people with whom you share/have shared an intimate relationship, all the better. But don't wreck the atmosphere and (to sound very corny) the purity of poetry as an art form by writing (under disguise) to purposely retort, wound or insult.
At the very least save that for the Board :-)
Hi new to the board - just submitted a song to this page - you can see it at River True - thanks!
Throckmorton
I'll only say this once...I am not Lemac.
It doesn't take a genius to see the threaded interconnections that occur on this site and to comment upon them. Lemac could be anyone amongst this delightful community.
True...I once loved Mr. McNabb...with every ounce of energy I had. And yes, many of my posting were about him.
But...that has past. And so too shall I, from further digression on this subject.
Damn Kendra, did you just write that? A Proposal
Okay, so I'll probably still READ here...I'll just bust the "L" on my keyboard...and hope OTHERS here will carry on the good fight.
Laugh out loud!
*pleased Mark will still be here in spirit, yet still determined to win him over with more off-the-cuff poetry at a later date*
Mark McNabb (OneNutJim)...
I'm not sweet and I'm not little but thanks so much for the advice. I'm not too worried about some sleazy Hollywood wannabe player stealin' my scenes, however. They all hang out at projectgreenlight.com.
Regarding the whole Just Some Girl/Rhetoric/Lemac thing, I think you've set yourself up by using multiple identities (Mark/One Nut, et al)to deride this community and the people who contribute to it. Now you're throwin' compliments left and right but I doubt your sincerity. You're very good at submitting quotes and other people's works. That doesn't impress me, nor does your whinin' about how your ex "done you wrong." Put it in poetry, if you must. Save the Board from your egomania. I implore you.
Misti?
I'll only say this ONCE...I AM NOT LEMAC!
(sound of everyone waving hands in front of mouth creating stadium cheers "aaaahhhhgggrrrraaahhh!" while SPARTACUS soundtrack swells)
Friends, Romans, Blenderites!
I am not Lemac! Nor am I!
I, too, am not Lemac!
I am not Lemac! Not I!
Everybody write in and declare your selves NOT Lemac!
Misti ~ Well said.
HiYa Mark,
Sounds like you got really ganged up on. That sucks. I actually wasn't trying to upset you or be a part of that. I guess I didn't realize the full depth of the entanglements with you and Rhet and Just Some Girl (didn't realize it was 'they' who were tormenting YOU). I feel for you. I just thought what I was commenting on was innocent fun. Friendly fire, if you will. I'm sorry this site has been used against you. That's not fair.
And actually, I DID notice the survey response that mimicked your own. I thought it was you poking fun at yourself. I was even seeing the similarities between you and OneNutJim.
Thank goodness I don't have MY e-mail address posted here. My life is pretty drama free, so being involved in cyberdrama would be...a useless passtime.(?) Involvement like that is too draining. I often think that the opposite of love is not hate, but indifference. I've learned to let go of negative feelings posthaste for my own well being. I suppose the women who are netstalking you have failed to see the value in that.
And your contibutions here ARE wonderful. You've presented me, many times, with the seed of a thought, from which I have continued to explore and enjoy.
I admit that I am an exibhitionist (and words are only a portion of my display). The only reason I post my stuff here is to see my name in print. (Definately an EGO issue, but not necessarily EGOCENTRIC) And maybe my lame-assed words might do what YOUR posts have done for me and inspire some sad or searching soul. Of course, I don't give a rat's ass if anyone LIKES it or not. If I thought it was any good I might consider having it published, but I don't consider myself much good at poetry.
Sooooooooo.......here's hoping you stay (don't let 'them' win), and all sincere apologies for being an unwitting participant in the rude and obsessive attack on you, Mr. McNabb.
-Teej
TEEJ and all the Mouseketeers...
"Just when I think it is over, they keep dragging me back in!" (you've got to read that line out loud(ly) like Kevin Spacey doing an over the top Al Pachino imitation...)
I'll readily admit that I can go pretty medieval when my well-being is threatened, or when my soul is soiled by some chic du soleil...and I have thrown down some righteous riffs of outrage when I feel a sacred space (yes Kirk, your Blender) is being jacked around by someone with creey intent. And because the cyber-incestuousness of the Board allows for you to "hook up" with your fave scribe, you can even have personal entanglements HERE and maybe even get somebody to email you some nekkid pictures...like pooping in your OWN neighborhood isn't good enough so dump a little onto the weirdworldweb...
(a Pinter-esque pause)
See, I thought Rhet was just some gal way way back, cause just a gal weren't just one at all but a whole bunch and then I use my 2+2 to figure a wild and wacky pattern...and now there are world wide webpals all over, some unwitting e-tanglements that are suddenly jumping MY ass while I'm just trying to post some shit about deep love and society and the rest of MY mental di-a-ree-uh which I'm sure you've all really really enjoyed.
And my only peace offering to Misti (who I fully realize isn't eentsy or weensty or cutesy or wutes) and her cool spouse Chad or Carl or whatever...ditch those e-pals and take this whole story line and write yourself an indie edgey dark comedy about some freaking website for romance poetry and the stories of 6-8 onlinelovelornwriters and the tragi-comic antics that ensue, the chat room dramas, the stalking, the "Sight-Keeper," have 8 1/2 Souvenirs do a slick Fellini-esque sndtrk - kick "You've Got Mail's" ASS and make the film it NEVER could be. Hook up with Sandra Bullock's company...hell, make it in Austin (4 of your other locations will be virtually anywhere ELSE online on the planet. No offense, but ditch the
www.projectflashingbluelight.com and DO your local Writers Conf...whew! Send me a $50k check when you make your first million off that ideer)
No, no REALLY...I'm not coming back here. I mean it.
Ok, I have officially contributed TOO much to the site/Board today. I forget that I don't know everyone's histories as well as some people do on here. It's too bad to find out you've been sporting multiple identities too Mark! I shouldn't be so quick to jump to defend without all of the facts. I still stand by what I said, but maybe we should ALL take note of what I tried to say in "A Proposal", and realize it can apply to everyone at some point.
And I think I am going to restrict my posting licence on the Board, and only speak when I have something good to say about a new artistic development (Misti speaks wise words above)...
Misti -
In case you DO take the filmmaker's path in life, remember the words from a fine example of a human destroyed by alcohol and an insane woman...
"Isn't Hollywood a dump? A hideous town, pointed up by the insulting gardens of the rich, full of the human spirit at a new low of debasement." F. Scott Fitzgerald
My fingers is gettin' tard...
It sure gets confusing trying to keep track of who's who and what's what on here... I think I'll just stick to readin' the poems. :-)
Design is 90% of anything, and this site lets you be anyone you wanna be...which of course breeds all kinds of mischief (Thanks, Kirk!) But then, we live in a world where you can easily use multiple hotmail addresses and cheat on your spouse/partner on the very same computer! God, would I LOVE to see the inside of some people's hard drives! I defend my actions as sad tired RESPONSES and REACTIONS to torment and basic human disrespect. But it appears there have been all manner of multiple identity feuding here over the past so many years. Not an original idea (too bad Misti, Kirk has already storyboarded and signed Spike Jonze to direct). I've even heard (read) proposals to The Man about restricting abuse opportunties or dropping the Board or whatever...even a month OFF to give it all a rest. But NOOOOOOO...
Blender Grade
Concept A+
Design (inc)
I say cure it or kill it. man, there was even some kids posting each other's personal correspondences here. So, by design it breeds mischief (how unfortunate for a site allegedly dedicated to romance POETRY..I can hear old Gomer now...
"...shame, shame, shame."
I don't think there is anything wrong with the blender. So what if people use multiple names? What's the problem with a few people slinging mud once in a while? It keeps things interesting. I like this site because though it is themed with romantic love, it does not close any doors to creativity. I say bravo to Kirk for creating such an awesome site, and hurray to those who speak their minds.
Although I've only found reason to use ONE name here, I don't think there's anything wrong with using more than that. Hell, that's the glory and the gory of the Web.
And seriously, Judge not, lest ye be judged. Live and let live. And all that other rot.
Use the Blender for what you need. We all have different agendas. Just 'do unto others'...bla bla bla. (Oh, I'm plumb full of cheezy quotes today!)
I want Mark's brain to stay here. Good entertainment/intellect is hard to find and I don't have enough money to pay for such talent elsewhere.
(I never follow my own advice when it concerns me keeping quiet)
Violet~~
While I still think the idea of multiple names just never seems to work out positively, I agree with the rest of your points wholeheartedly (especially the commendation to Kirk, way to go this place is great!)...and slinging mud makes things VERY interesting indeed. I only objected because in this particular case it was obviously hurting someone's feelings.
And the best part about this place is the creativity it inspires. Somehow or other it has inspired me to write far better than I knew I could. So I guess what I'm saying is, while I'd like to think this place could exist without the occasional misuse, inappropriate rant, malicious writing or what have you, maybe this site needs to be left just the way it is, because who knows what might be inadvertantly lost by making changes to how the site (and the people who love it) work.
Bacardi; Glad to see you here, I love your poems, they are breathtaking. May we have more please?
Laurel; Glad to hear you're feeling better. The hounds sound wonderful. Dogs are such characters, I think in all my years with three Huskeys/two Corgis I could write a book of really funny dog stories. Bet you know a bunch too.
Thank you Ali, Jon, CAgal for comments on A Womans Worth. I do love the Alicia Keys CD. That was fun to write.
As for the Bru-ha ha going on now. Until the full moon is gone I refuse to comment.
I promise I will comment on poems soon. I do hit and runs on this place and love what I am reading tho I would rather see original poems rather than quotes so much.
bk
man looks like you guys are having too much fun without me!
Oh well!
*sigh*
The search for a job hasn't yet ended, but Australia still has happiness for me.
We brought our very first joint purchase over the weekend, a way too expensive sofa, can't wait until it arrives!
Yippeee....
*doing the deevaa dance*
take care of your hearts.
dee
Oh! Oh! Oh! BK BK BK!!!!!!!! Hey!! I found out what a Brouhaha is!!
brouhaha ('bru:ha:ha:) n. a loud confused noise; commotion; uproar. [F, imit.]
I always like to use new words in a practical, real life application!! Ergo the shmaltz you read here recently!
:-) <------ smiley face (that means NO offense to ANYONE intended WHATSOEVER!!)
Funnin'
-Teej
I REST MY CASE! HA
(don't get me started)
bk