"How do Mr. Leamas?" "I'm fine Leamas thanks for asking. Hey I've got a question for you.":
Just out of curiousity, why do people medicate themselves to fit the norm? I am not pointing the finger because the whole pot-kettle and dark epidermis witticism would apply. Other than for physical safety, why do depressed folks feel it necessary to fit into the "normal" emotional spectrum? Just curious on opinions thats all. Crazy hijinx.---LEAMAS
Thank each and every one of you for your kind words on what was mostly a calm, uneventful day.
I am deeply touched...
(Sally Field's speech at the Oscars all those years ago keeps playing in my brain: "You LIKE me, you really like me!")
Make today a great day, everyone!
BK
i am amused and your site evaluates me as a phoenix.
CryingShame
I'm a phoenix too. I am really starting to think that I have become Misti in a second life.
Misti -
yeah - I am always disappointed in meds. I HATED Paxil for that same reason - no orgasm. That is why I wonder if anything (save shock therapy) will help me maitain all semblances of normality. You hang in there - I am confident that you will win the war in your head!
leamas - I take drugs to calm the urge to analyze everything. It is as much for my own sanitiy as it is for those around me. Yes, it tempers my bubbly personality some - it is worth it to have a mental break from myself now and then!
jimmy - I was confused by your comment to me:
[Rhettie!!! If weren't a flamingly-gay man.... ;)]
I couldn't tell if you were coming out as a gay man or thinking I was a gay man. Just to clear up - I am female. And as for being scandalous - why surely you don't mean me! I am just a fly on the wall of humanity, sir. I just enjoy a moment or two of insanity like the rest of us - that is where my posts of late came from.
That salon article horrified me. I couldn't tell if it was intended to be a joke or not!
Inflated Sushi - In reference to your post: I Can Move Farther Than You Can...la la lala la! - 187 pounds of white hot light - indeed. It has been wonderful exchanging insults with you. Post Wilde, I looked for you - but you were gone. I want to thank you for the times - good and bad. It has helped me see so many things about myself.
Rhetty...
hmmm.. Unicorn ... floofiness...
Guess all the virgin questions I answered to didn't matter much.
leamas~
I'm not tryin' to be a round peg. I will always be a square peg in a round hole. I take Celexa so that I won't have crying jags. They give me headaches and are a colossal waste of time and energy. I need Celexa to function and to be a decent wife and friend to my husband. Sad but true. Maybe if I were more spiritually evolved I could meditate thirty minutes a day and leave it at that. At this point in my life, I need twenty milligrams of Celexa a day.
Rhet~
Thank you for the encouraging words. Same back atcha.
scqueen~
oh girl...god and all his angels and all the unicorns in the forest and pegasuses in the air and dragons in the dungeons and aliens in the cosmos help you. One Misti is more than enough! Ha!
Lemas are you and Jimmy one and the same??? Maybe Kirk can check that out for us...ha But even so yes we all get down at times. Thats how great books and music and poetry are written. We pull ourselves up and try it all again. Every day is a new day and the law of the jungle prevails. You eat or be eaten or camouflage in the middle and hope not to be seen whittling away.
I was kinda scared we would all be unicorns ha. But the test did not get stuck huh...ha Stephen, they are pretty stupid I know but they somehow amuse me at times ha
Kev; Honey we all love you..XOXO
Deeva; You have about seven good years left before he turns into a teenager, ha Enjoy them while you can.(I'm kidding, it's all wonderful, exciting and a new adventure every year!)
bk
Jon~ hmm i guess i better not send my pic and stuff....... no no no j/k j/k lol but hey, its not everyday theres a sensitive guy out there who writes GOOD poems.
take care all,
B
Rhetty or not here I come!!!
Some things need to be cleared up. No, Leamas and I are not the same individual. Ask Capt. Kirk if you don't believe me. And my name is not Jimmy. That is a nice name, but it is not mine. I chose it to pay tribute to perhaps my all-time favorite Blender personality. I am sure he needs no introduction. I believe he travels in more - how shall I say? - inflated circles these days. ;) And yes Rhetty I know you are not a gay man. But all your recent naughty talk on the Board made me blush! Don't worry, though; I am decidedly queer. The last girl I had a crush on was Melanie Moorehouse in the second grade - and that was only until I met her brother! Ta ta . . . off to make the donuts! ;)
jimmyallgrownup -
Hmm...I guess I thought you were confusing me with another and the gay comment was in efforts to out my blender persona (or some such nonsense). Don't sweat it honey - even if you were batting for my team, I am betrothed to another. No man alive could pull me from the perfection I call my own true bo-hunk!
I gathered that you were our 'dear jim' and were just through with all that interpersonal castration and wanted to play nice with the rest of the children - hence the term all gorwn up. Did anyone else feel the same?
Goodness...where have all the rants and raves gone? I really thought that the occasional bitter German poem was a refreshing change to all the sludge I have been writing lately.
Just my opinion, though.
Did I mention that I had an interview last night? Well, I think it interview went pretty well ....
After all, I got the job!!!!
Its perfect - 3 days a week, (leaving me time to paint) a nice hourly rate, it is flexible, the people seemed really great, it'll be extending me skill wise... and .... and I'm just freakin happy!
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(there is much deevaa dancing going on here right about now)
The *Little Boy Who Cried Wolf*. I never liked that story.
Hey read the squirrel thing I wrote. It still cracks me up and frankly, I don't need you to like it but I would appreciate it if you would tell me it was hilarious. Thanks for being such a dove. Strictly ballyhoo I tell you, absolute nuttiness.--LEAMAS
Rainbow Chaser~ I absolutely adored What I really want. I saw so much of myself when I read it.
Dee!!
Congrats girl!!! That's awesome! *smile* I'm happy for ya! :)
Love and hugs, Ali
(Again...)
Laughed my fucking head off.
Ode to the Squirrel
Hello all, just wanted to mention first I took the test twice. (said I was a phoenix, didn't think that was right). So next it said dragon, go figure.
I go away for one day and sometimes there are only five or less new poems. Guess I do not usually go away for the weekend huh. Can't wait to get started reading them. I just love this web site. Oh and how about if everyone just waits a day or two to submit new work, make it easier for me to catch up ya know? ok? yeah?
I didn't think so, but it was worth a try. hahaha
love, hugs, and one long slow kiss (yeah to you)
spaded
i was a phoenix. but then i just tried changing all my answers one at a time to get all the different creatures. the picture of a basilisk is really goofy. i pitty the foo who gets that. heh heh.
farewell
whisper
QUESTION: why do you post on the loveblender?
whisper -- hey, I thought I'd drop a line or two. a day with no tomarrow was an interesting read. I truly didn't know what to think of it. It sounded to me as if you were giving your all in life in which you recieved nothing in return. I hope this wasn't inspired by true life. If that is the case however, I hope things will be looking up for you soon. Oh, and by the way... why do I post on the loveblender? Because it gives me a place to unwind and share my thoughts and love and life. I love the fellowship I recieve. And of course there is the surface recognition. That play a part in the loveblender also. I would do just about anything to get my name out there.
Later and all-that-hugs-type-stuff,
~~Max~~
I post on here because I have been writing for a long time and they sit in my notebook....except for the few i got published......and so I feel like maybe someone here can realate to what I write and feel connected....Same reason I read the poems....many of them just make me feel like Maybe I am not the only person out there that feels the way I do and I am not crazy...ya know?
-Jenilee-
~Whisper~ wow. a day with no tomorrow.....I too hope that you didnt have to experience it to write about it. But either way I like it. Its really to the point and thats refreshing
-Jenilee-